Week 1  

Lamorenita22 35F
12 posts
4/17/2006 1:20 am
Week 1

Week 1 of my vacation from my husband is up! It sux tho because when he gets back I wont be able to do the shit I'm doing now like staying out all night and drinking with my friends. I just have this feeling the shit between me and my husband is going to get worse I just hope I have a job by the time the shit hits the fan. All this week I felt really depressed (mainly because I got dissed again) I wasnt actually trying to get with the boy or anything but the issue mainly was I trusted this person enough to let them step foot in this apartment. We talked and that was it he went thru my cds I ended up making him 2 and he went on his merry way. Now when I sign in he signs out or goes invisible. If you ask me thats kinda harsh I'm a friendly person and the majority of the time my generosity is abused. So lately I have started putting my foot down and saying hey I cant be everywhere at one time but I will try to make time for everybody. I have even gotten to the point where I tell my friends I'm sorry I cant buy you this and that because I need gas etc etc etc. It seems like I get so busy trying to satisfy everybody else I forget to take a break and do something for myself. So for the next 2 weeks I'm going to do little stuff for myself. I think I will feel better after I do my cardio tomorrow. I usually do 60 minutes a day 5 days a week. But this week I only had time for 30-45 minutes because my kids wanted to go to the park and I was playing Taxi. I havent bumped into anymore ignorant rascist bastards lately so I cant really say this was a horrible week. I somehow lost 5 pounds but I dont know where from....cuz everything looks the same to me. Ive lost 23 pounds and I have 40 to go so I should be happy about that. Yesterday I had a bootie call and it was horrible I wasnt comfortable and I didnt like the place we were at. I went to his job right and he took me into this bathroom. I hate bathrooms especailly cold ones I'm sorry but toilets do not turn me on. What made it so bad is he is paranoid he was afraid that he was going to get the smell of my lotion on him (I did not wear perfume because he begged me not too)He is married too and he says his wife is crazy which must be true because he has a lot of scars on his arms and he claims she cut him. The whole thing was over in less than 5 minutes. He wanted to do it doggystyle (I was not surprised) and when I barely started getting used to his size he nutted and I was like ok what was that? He of course apologized and made some excuses I was thinking damn I normally dont mess with men my age because they all make excuses and as usual they agree with whatever I say. I told him the truth I didnt like it and I wasnt comfortable and he said he didnt like the bathroom either so next time he wants to get a motel. But there isnt going to be a next time because I am leaving that boy alone that was the first time we had "fucked" (if u can call it that) and the last. He is moving to California (thank God) next week so he wont be blowing my phone up anymore. He gets pissed when I dont answer and I dont know why. Im off too bed so I can see what tomorrow will bring.

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