I'M IN A MOOD............  

Ladyblue85 59F
117 posts
4/3/2006 2:20 pm

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4/4/2006 4:56 am

I'M IN A MOOD............

for writing and screaming and bitch-slapping everyone and anyone who gets in my way and pisses me off even a tad.... yeah, i said TAD!

I just spent all day doing errands, paying bills for someone else, enjoying the solitude of having the house to myself still........ then got on a roll to completely move furniture (with a herniated disk no less)....... popped a few CD's into my stereo and got to cleaning...... took less than a half hour before the stress of everything once again hit me. So there I was dusting and climbing and cleaning and crying........ yeah, we tough bitches on AdultFriendFinder cry, some more than others.

I've been trying to write a blog about what's been going on lately in my life, not only to vent but show people what I am going thru, and hope someone will read and understand why I no longer have patience for assholes in my life. THAT blog has been hard to do because it will basically put me "out there" more naked and exposed than the guys from here have seen me in person.

Like I've said many times before, when i first came back here about 18 months ago, I started with a nice profile...... it has changed now at least 12 times. I've had several guys finally had the courage to tuck their testicles and write to me, always say they like how up front I am, yet afraid to approach.... well great, I always think a little fear in men is a good thing. I'm at the point in life, in every aspect of it, that I don't give a flying fuck what someone thinks about me...... I am who I am, body, soul , heart and emotion BECAUSE of what I have had to live through in my life. I am always up front about what I am about and what I am dealing with in my personal life. If you like me enough to want to be a friend or have the balls to stick around for a relationship, great --- you will not find a better friend than moi' .

But i digress......... in the cleaning/crying session today, because of some things that recently occured, I got to thinking about all the shit people say that piss me off, especially before they know me well. And yes, I'm mostly talking about men. The list is random, and I'm sure more will come to mind later:

1. I love it when a man says, "I'm not like the other guys......" THATS the first sign u are. Don't say it, show it with actions. THAT phrase just makes me believe u are trying to pull a fast one right away.
2. Do NOT EVER tell me, "Things can only get better........." Long story there --- watch for the other blog soon.
3. Do not EVER EVER EVER EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!! put down my hobby of showing dogs.......... I have been involved in it since 1979....... it is not a sport that one can make $$$$ in. It is a hobby. The ONLY one that has kept me sane at times, and yes, I'll even state it here, stopped me from suicide at times.
4. DON'T tell me u want someone who can communicate on a wide variety of subjects, express feelings in a relationship, etc......... then tell me, "You're giving me too much detail when u talk.... it's overloading my brain (or I can't follow everything)." Uh, isn't that like telling me to shut the fuck up??? ( I am a writer, I talk like I would write, WITH DETAILS. Didn't think making myself clear was a problem.)
4a. Yeah, it's related to the above statement ----- Do NOT ever tell me in any way, shape or form, if I say something about a problem going on that is upsetting me, "....you know, it's good to talk but sometimes a person gets sick of hearing about it........" (Ok, picture my fractured jaw hitting the floor!)
5. DO NOT start lecturing ME about god (and I mean ANY god) if I say I don't believe in god. I have my reasons......... and I usually keep them to myself, because I have never believed in forcing anyone's belief's or non-belief's onto another. If u ask me why I do not believe and I tell you, just shut the fuck up and end it there, ok?? Unless I ask what u believe in and why , just zip it.
6. NEVER EVER make fun of my beliefs/feelings related to animals. Again long story, but if u can't see MY compassion in what I love or believe in, I don't need u in my life.

I'm sure there are more statements that piss me off........ but by the phrase at the end of this....... if a man does not understand what it means..... he has no business trying to bullshit me into any of his lines.

"Touch my mind, you gain my interest......
Touch my heart, you gain my love.....
Touch my soul, you gain passion beyond your wildest dreams.....
And once you have all three, you have a soul mate for eternity!"

MoonRise9 59M

4/3/2006 10:07 pm

You are in a mood, Ms. Blue. What kind of dogs do you show? I've got a tweenie boy Dachsund with his own agenda and definitely not enough training for urban life and forget showing - a country dog he is, out hunting on his own every day along the stone walls.

restlessguy2004 54M
59 posts
10/8/2006 2:12 am

I'd just like to say I'm glad that I'm not the only one that still uses 'tad' ............

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