I Don't Know About This One....  

rm_LilBlondeNZ 42F
1259 posts
9/1/2005 7:00 pm
I Don't Know About This One....

OK so in my last post I was pretty P.O.'d. Some stupid guy annoyed me and I just went oofffffff. LOL. Venting is therapeutic, but I read my last post and actually said "Ouch!" But whatever, that was Tuesday. A lot can happen in 48 hours to change my mind ...

So I'm sitting here, staring at my blinking cursor, watching Jets preseason football out of the corner of my eye. And I'm drawing a blank. I dont know what words I want to type. Because I know he will study with great amusement anything I write.

I met someone. And he's.... different, interesting, and very confusing. I don't know what quite to make of him yet. I was trying to describe him to my roommate yesterday and I gave up after a few minutes of rambling. He has this public persona that is abrasive, obnoxious, super sarcastic, borderline conceited, definitely overconfident, ego obsessed, sometimes vulgar, totally immature and completely unrefined. His first email to me was a one line sideways compliment/outright insult.

But I thought immediately "That's just a shell. It's a gimmick. It's not possible that someone can genuinely be like that all the time. There has to be another side. He's either kidding, being evasive, or overcompensating for having a really small penis" So I posted on his obnoxious blog and replied to his pathetic email. He cancelled last minute for first date, and that was almost the end of the line for him. But being that I'm an overforgiving person, and he actually seemed somewhat contrite, I let him reschedule... and so it went from there. He leaves me ranting voicemails about his peabrain boss that make me laugh out loud in a class full of students. His text messages make me smile. But I can't quite figure him out. And he relishes that fact. He loves to be a "great big question mark"... But for how long? I dont know how long this charade goes on for... does it ever end? Hmmmm...

We share the same vibe- very positive energy, excellent sexual chemistry, same intelligence level, same somewhat twisted humor, and appreciation for music (although our tastes differ). In fact, there have been moments when I'm a little freaked by some wierd things we have in common. Last night alone: without looking at a menu, he orders the same odd thing I wanted for takeout. And then he takes out an esoteric movie that happens to be one of my very favorite DVDs, we both know all the lines...

And the sex is great. Which is the only thing I thought he was interested in. But he tells me otherwise. And for some reason, despite my cynicsm, I believe him. Which going on past experience is probably not such a good idea, but I'm going to go on gut with this one. Because I get brief glimpses of what's under the hard shell, and I kinda like what I see. I think... but then again I'm not sure. It's possible that the sweet, thoughtful, warm guy I see underneath is actually the act, and the crass exterior is his true self. Hmmm....it's tough to tell.

See here's the problem, if I'm truthful and tell him about what I really think, I'm afraid the evil egomaniac persona will eat it up and I will have created even more of a monster and I will regret having been honest. If I don't, I wouldn't be being truthful... So I'm stuck.


Oh well, at least the Jets are winning.

Dcausticexplorer 42M
28 posts
9/3/2005 5:31 pm

After reading what you've written, I can only say that he seems like a real ass. He obviously has many issues and seems to possibly have a multiple personality disorder. I bet he's heavily medicated and most likely has a very small penis. I hate arrogant people. They sicken me. If I ever met him, I'd beat him with sticks. I have some advice for you: tell him to go take a flying leap of a short pier and get with a real man like the legendary....

Word to your moms....!

rm_LilBlondeNZ 42F
1028 posts
9/4/2005 5:18 am

"Hello Teapot? This is Kettle. You're black."

P.S. "Super-Genius"? I can let that one go...but who told you that you that you're a "real man"... now THAT'S a stretch...
Everyone knows that real men don't watch wrestling.

Dcausticexplorer 42M
28 posts
9/4/2005 6:57 am

That's fucked up.

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