Peace in the tempest  

Kaliedascope61 43M
3157 posts
5/14/2006 3:36 pm

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5/26/2006 2:32 pm

Peace in the tempest

Peace in the tempest

It is dark outside. I can feel the air making me heavier. The clouds are black and keeping the sun from warming my thoughts. The chill in my veins is darkening my thoughts, darkening my heart. Control is the issue. I have lost hope in controlling what transpires in my brain. Each thought is thunder, every idea is lightning, and lightning however beautiful and spectacular is a dangerous thing.

My window I think will break soon, the hail has begun to fall. I'm going to sit next to it. Fear has not shown its ugly face, courage is lost to the wind. The chaos I have wished for is here, the fury has finally come to unleash its hounds and take my soul. It is not enough, I want more, and I always want more. I want the icy fear of it, and it is lost to me. I want to be afraid to breathe, and here I sit calmly writing clear in my head and flashes in my eyes.

What is enough, greed is something I know well. I am hungry, insatiable and what I have is what I want more of. Here it comes. The rain in the distance is louder than the thunder as it hits the concrete on a distant street. It will turn that street from gray to black. Everything turns black in a storm.

It is holding back, it will pass over and leave me frustrated, its wicked eye will see me through my window take my power and dissipate with out a trace, like it never even happened. Because I will not provoke it, I will not tempt it take me. I am not strong enough to look it in the eye and dare the lightening to strike.

So I sit next to the crying window, watching it fog up as I exhale the smoke that just blackened my lungs with delight. Peace in the tempest is what I know.



countrygirl0173 45F

5/14/2006 4:20 pm

Wow, I love this. I felt like I was feeling the same pain as you, with you.

*Hugs*
Melissa


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:18 pm:
That is a good thing.

EroticaXTC 51F

5/14/2006 5:44 pm

There is this saying..."In the midst of chaos, there is an order"

you have an awesome way of putting us there!!!


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:19 pm:
I'm hoping I can come with something different, but in the same style.

NSAAddict 43F

5/14/2006 8:23 pm

Beautifully written Kal, I like what I can feel.


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:20 pm:
what were you feeling?

ArgosPlumyKooky 46F
3902 posts
5/14/2006 9:50 pm

a journey a challenge, good luc to you, good luc. . .


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:20 pm:
wouldn't have it any other way

HBowt2 60F

5/15/2006 4:51 am

The chaos I have wished for is here, the fury has finally come to unleash its hounds and take my soul. It is not enough, I want more, and I always want more. I want the icy fear of it, and it is lost to me. I want to be afraid to breathe

I sat here looking at the screen ...reading and re-reading these words.....they resonate deep within me....finding a home in my heart and soul....racing through my blood....but they are not my torment or my pain....they are my hunger....


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:21 pm:
I could have used those same words, your comment could have been word for word in this story.

rm_metalmama69 43F
3878 posts
5/15/2006 6:03 am

I love how you write. Anyone who can get me thinking is DAMN amazing!!!!


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:21 pm:
No cussing....please say dang it from now on

rm_1hotwahine 64F
21091 posts
5/15/2006 5:48 pm

Would love to see this one followed with a Kalieiesm on Surrender.

Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:22 pm:
a Kalieism....I like that, and surrender isn't something I have really wrote about is it?

absolutelynormal 57F
6563 posts
5/15/2006 8:19 pm

Nice writing, as always.


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:22 pm:
glad you enjoy it.

tillerbabe 57F

5/15/2006 11:12 pm

Dark and sensual....love it!


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:23 pm:
thanks tillerscope

elysianpleasure 49M

5/16/2006 12:29 pm

Great writing... haven't been here in a long time... will have to check it out more often... even if you are a "guy"


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:23 pm:
Not just a guy in quotes, but I guy all together, at least that could be up for debate.

MsLoveRose 34F  
2432 posts
5/17/2006 9:53 am

its one of those in body...out of body readings...like im here reading but im also there watching...lurking!! very tasteful!!

live more, laugh often, love much


Kaliedascope61 replies on 5/18/2006 7:25 pm:
that was you I heard then!

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