A meaningless movement  

Kaliedascope61 43M
3157 posts
7/11/2006 8:48 pm

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8/1/2006 8:48 am

A meaningless movement

A meaningless movement
A movie script ending,

I swirl in my brain fighting it, every thought a battle not to lash out. I have no reason. There is no cause for my anger. Inside I burn for the pride, the feeling of accomplishment. Life doesn't have a finish line.

There are times I lose my worried mind

One day I will wake up and I will be dead. I wonder about that day. I wonder what I will fondly remember and what my regrets will be. There is so much living I have to do, so much I need to get done and I don't know how to be satisfied.

In Between the moon and you
The Angels get a better view
Of the crumbling difference between wrong and right

The problem is getting in touch with my wild side, the part of me that comes out when I least expect it. I used to know this part of me well. I remember so many nights where everything came easy, no worries, no problems, or I just didn't give a fuck. I have only seen glimpses of that part of me recently. I've learned that side of me cannot be pushed, or even coaxed out. It has to happen naturally or not at all, and I have lost touch.

Hand me my sentence
I'll show no repentance
I'll suffer with pride

I have found the dream girl, the dream love, the woman I belong with. Now it is time to make new goals, and I think I just found the reason, the reason I'm angry. For the most part I know where I am going from here, but I haven't figured out exactly how. I need the details, the plans. Dreams don't come true just because I want them too. I found that out when I met her. I have to fight for them, suffer for them, and finally take them.

I will give the secrets you request
But you will be the one to sacrifice
So lay your olive arms upon my chest
Sing the poems, and free the butterflies.

So what does the future hold? I have no idea, but I dream of a lifetime of happiness, a lifetime of challenges and adventures. I am willing to burn, suffer and fight for it. Right now I am hitting a bit of the suffering.

Death Cab for Cutie - A movie script ending
John Mayer - Not Myself
Counting Crows - Round Here
Depeche Mode - Condemnation
Toad the Wet Sprocket - Pray your gods

NSAAddict 43F

7/11/2006 11:34 pm

Your future holds a lifetime of dreams, happiness and adventures. You might have to work hard, fight hard and yes even suffer, but that makes attaining these things all the more worthwhile. Best of luck in getting there quickly

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 6:26 am:
Its all there, and its about figuring out how to take it!

mycin62 55F

7/11/2006 11:59 pm

Anything worthwhile is worth fighting for. Get out there and fight. Make your dreams come true.

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 6:26 am:
I'll get there.

TabithaElectra 39F

7/12/2006 5:11 am

Sometimes it looks like forever until you might get the things you want, but in the great scheme of things it's not all that long....

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 6:27 am:
Forever is always a long ways away isn't it?

2375 posts
7/12/2006 6:13 am

With the bitter comes the sweet. I guess we have to endure some suffering to fully appreciate joy. You've known enough suffering, so I'm thinking good thoughts for you today, to get to the joy.

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 6:27 am:
Very true. and thanks

MWWwantmore 52F

7/12/2006 9:52 am

At least you are headed in the right direction I wish you both the best of luck in finding and fufilling your dreams!

I'll have a cafe, mocha, vodka, valium latte to go please!

Good girls go to heaven.....bad girls go down!!

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 1:25 pm:
Thanks I appreciate that.


7/12/2006 1:39 pm

Maybe it's the fight that makes us appreciate what we have so much more. The first car you pay off, a job well done, all things that are a bit of a struggle give us great pride and satisfaction and are alot easier to keep in perspective of their importance and not take for granted. Happy your dreams are taking shape! Great post Kal. {=} btw...that post of katbacks wasnt for the contest and I voted for Devil's Playground

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/12/2006 4:28 pm:
It wasn't? I been seeing those things every where, and thanks for voting for those two, they spent a lot of time burning the midnight oil creating that, they truly deserve to win!

I know they appreciate every vote that they get.


Your right it is the fight, and the struggle that makes the things we get appreciated, Its always better to earn it, than to have it just given.

docdirk 49M

7/12/2006 7:56 pm

Fear not - a lifetime of midgets, onions and toenails await ye! Drink up and be merry!!

Ah, Its you again, Your Angel Feathers and your Blood Stains...

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/13/2006 5:42 pm:
I saw a midget today in the city, CC walked right on by didn't notice, I felt it wise not to tell her.

Sorceror07 55M

7/14/2006 9:53 am

a little suffering never killed anyone... yet

...That which does not kill me merely pisses me off!...

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/17/2006 4:50 pm:
No, not suffering, maybe torture though?

HBowt2 60F

7/15/2006 7:52 pm

a life time of being yourself hopefully

Kaliedascope61 replies on 7/17/2006 4:50 pm:
thats all i know how to be

8337 posts
7/31/2006 6:00 pm


You have to fight for what you want, what you truly want, your dreams.

It's the times when you think you've been inadequate, that you're running out of time that you should be enjoying what you have, whatever you have with your dream love.

Don't get so caught up in your fear that you lose sight of *the moment*, these fleeting glances of poignancy that you don't notice until they are gone and all that remains are periods of reminiscence.

This is life.


"My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer to embrace an early death." -Tupac Shakur

Kaliedascope61 replies on 8/1/2006 8:50 am:
It is life, and living in the now, and planning for the future can seem at odds.

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