Waiting  

KaeGirl22 34F
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7/27/2006 2:16 pm

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7/30/2006 6:40 pm

Waiting

Someone's getting played...and I think that someone is me! I dont know....really it could just be my insecurities talking but seriously. I've been about as patient as the dandelions slowly taking over my front yard. I feel like this person is the dealer and I'm just not lucky enough to get any of the cards. I understand that I'm busy and I understand that you are busy.
I'm sure this is my own insecurities talking but I cant help but wonder if you have a girlfriend or a wife or something. With all thats happened to me in the past few weeks I can't help but think it. You really never know.
I basically right now feel like I'm being spoon fed what you think I want to hear. The problem is, I don't just want to hear it. I don't want to hear "I miss you" when Nothing really gets done about hanging out. I tell you when my schedule is and what my days off are and all I get is "maybe." I know that this is sort like a "catch and release program" but for people...odd thing is the things that I'm being told lead me to believe otherwise.
I feel like I've been used for sex right now. Thats what happened the last two times we have hung out. I'm trying to be as understanding as I can without being obnoxiously whiny about it...but this is me whining.
At this point I really don't know where I stand. I understand that things need to go slow....what I dont understand is how much slower can I go?
Please let me know whats going on. If the few times that we hung out is all I get, I'd like to be made aware of that. If you want more, I'd like to be made aware of that too.
I'm really not mad at this point. I understand that things need to go slow. I'm not trying to dispute that in any way. I'm just frustrated with the way things are going and I'm a bit confused.
Set my mind at ease,

Kae


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