Weird Dreams...  

Iwakura16Eyes 38F
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7/10/2006 11:42 am

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7/11/2006 2:38 pm

Weird Dreams...

Once or twice a year I have a very odd dream...

I have a dream that I meet up purposely with the guy I had my first LT relationship with and we end up having really good sex. Somehow his wife knows about it all--and when we are done having our fun... she comes back to get him. She acknowledges me like she is okay with it, but I can always tell she's not. Even in the dream, he tells me it's okay and he and I carry on almost like we used to. We lay in bed talking and making fun of crap like we used to. The rapport is still there, yanno?

why does this weird me out? I haven't spoken to him in 6 years and have no desire to. She and I have been fairweather pals on LiveJournal and have chatted here n there. We pretty much have no hard feelings and I am very happy for them. I also respect her a great deal--and I respect their relationship. In the dream, you can tell it upsets her although she is silent and I wake up feeling guilty because of that. It bothers me.... It also bothers me because I wouldn't do anything to jeopardize ANYONE'S relationship--esp a marriage. I am also bothered because I am unsure of why I would have a dream like that because I never really think about him or yearn for him in that way, yanno?

seriously, kids... why am I having screwed up dreams like this? I have a dream similar in nature about him at least a couple times a year. Same shit and feelings come up--but maybe locales are different or the confrontations are different. It bothers me... is something out there trying to tell me something...?

vrec_dawn 41M

7/10/2006 4:18 pm

I blame it on the moon! It's got to be full right now, right? Because this $#!7 always happens to me around full moons.

Because last night I had this freaking weird similar dream where my ex and I actually **gasp** talked and communicated. And I explained to her how she'd failed me in our relationship, and she saw it all and agreed with me and accepted it like she finally f'ing got it. And then **freak** we started kissing! OMFG! As if!

Luckily my alarm started going off then. And I woke up heartsick because a part of me does still love her, or at least loves the woman she used to be. And I miss that her. I just have no love for her current incarnation.

Strangely enough, I caught up with my ex just a couple of hours ago for signing the paperwork to refinance the house so that she could get her damn divorce money, and wouldn't you know, without prompting she tells me how she's been sick lately, and at exactly the same time that I woke up from my dream, she woke up with the stomach flu and had to run to the bathroom to vomit! **ROFLMAO** Ooooohhhhh ... I love karma. I hope to freaking god that some subconcious level understands what the hell she's done to me and is so guilty about it that she makes herself sick for a while. She deserves that much after all this.

Err ... sorry for the rant there. But my point was that it must be something in the air lately. Some alignment of the stars. I don't know ... something. Because that's too darn weird of a coincidence. So I wouldn't feel bad about it if I were you. Sometimes these things have outside influences and thus don't represent the real us.

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