Getting the Bitch Off....  

Iwakura16Eyes 38F
603 posts
6/21/2006 12:07 pm

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6/24/2006 6:41 pm

Getting the Bitch Off....

no seriously... I refer to the weight I have gained as "the Bitch." lol... I know... I am crazy--so what else is new?

so I used to be in MUCH better shape with a much better body--I swear to God. Then, I went off to college and suffered through a music conservatory education in performance on a bloody stringed instrument for 4 years.... HELL... combine that with a stupid guy that I put everything into for three years only to get nothing back.... and then add in a dash of some seriously bad eating habits with depressive binge eating. I went from eating organics and good foods in abundance--no junk food or pop, ever--to eating shitty college food with pizza, too much pop, and way too much sodium in my diet. 40 pounds later--then another 20... then a baby--*giggles* but that was fun...

well.... I went from a nicely stacked 10-12 to a frigging 18.... shitty... I weighed 205 when I gave birth to my daughter in February of 2004. I got my butt in gear and slowly pulled my diet back in line--living with the folks again from June 2004 onward made that much easier. No unnecessary sugars or crap. I try to be damn careful.... but hadn't had time for good exercise--I did do yoga, though. This lil bit of shit made me go down to 180... I now bounce around 175-180... depends on the stress or life itself.... I am down to a size 14-16... BUT... I have more time devote to my body now... I am going to start running regularly again.... I was never a tiny/skinny thing... I was always more muscularly built. I will be glad to get myself toned and in shape again after burning some of the excess off. I have been feeling like this weight is a leftover stigma from the days of misery at school and such--losing the weight would be like beating all that shit, no? I think that's a beautiful way of looking at it.... seriously... this is why the weight is called "the bitch." I was never that girl... I was never that way... I am getting back to ME.... the body needs to match the sex-kitten personality for me to be happy, yanno?

I am looking forward to feeling even better about my body. It's not that I am uncomfortable with my skin, kids... it is just time for something new... raise my standards of me first... confidence is great--lately I have felt like a goddess.... BUT--there is ALWAYS room for improvement.... and yanno what? I am one of those lucky chicks that doesn't lose her breasts when she works out---this will be nice... skinnier--more toned... and still a nice rack? I might even wanna fuck myself when I am done (not that I dun already technically do that enough lately)

anyhew... if you read this far--what the hell were you thinking? but thanks all the same... support for this venture would be much appreciated... I am not doing this for anyone else but ME tho...

(Sylver) - Turn the Tide

lookit! who am I calling? oh fuck.

rm_Paddywack42 53M
30 posts
6/21/2006 2:18 pm

WEll i can honestly say without fear of being accused of just wanting into your knickers (i am much to far away for that) that I cannot see anything wrong with your body...unless you have been using a body double for your photos.

If you feel then need to feel better about yourself then fine go for it with all my support but trust me when i say you are fine the way you are.

vrec_dawn 41M

6/21/2006 3:37 pm

I have to agree with Paddywack42. But that aside, I also know the emotional stigma involved. So get that bitch off your back. (Or stomach, or wherever she's hiding.) Go for making the new you! You have my utmost support.

I've been trying to do the same for me, but I seemed to have hit a wall at 200. Not that losing 35lbs hasn't made me happy. But I want to go at least 15 more, and I just can't seem to do it. It's quite possibly because of emotions not expressed/released yet though. So once the divorce is over with I hope I can get there.

Anywho, good luck on your mission. Don't let the bitch get the best of you. Show her who's boss!

ProtonicMan 49M

6/21/2006 6:25 pm

Yer doin great, kid. And your motivation is in the right place. Feeling good about yourself is sooo worth the work.

Unfortunately, my get-back-in-shape plan for the summer was derailed on Friday night. I'll have at least 3 weeks to catch up on again.

Damn deer. At least running poses less risk of interacting with one of those!


Iwakura16Eyes 38F

6/21/2006 10:03 pm

    Quoting rm_mzhunyhole:
    Ya got to do it for yourself and nobody least ya got that part day at a time..I know ya can do it..I did.
you did? schweet. It's always nice to know we are not alone in our struggles and joys. Reminds us that living is indeed human.

(I still swear to God that you are lying about yer age If that is truly yer age, my dear--I hope I age as wonderfully as you have

chasingfun27 39M
1108 posts
6/23/2006 3:45 am


Life adds what it wants. Kids certainly seem to add more than their fair share.

I've been despised for it but I can't gain weight. If you can lose the kilos (pounds) that I try to gain, then I think you're legendary. That is a big effort rewarded.

Good on you.

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