Ciao AFF...  

HornySactoGirl 37F
103 posts
9/18/2005 9:28 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Ciao AFF...


WFT!? So I went and started thinking, and I have discovered that I don't really like where I am going with this whole side of me. I love cock, don't get me wrong, but I want something more. I want someone to make breakfast for and to kiss when he walks in the door. I want to rub someone's feet when he's had a hard day and have him come up behind me and hug me when I am cooking dinner. This site really dries up a person's soul. Yea, the sex is great, don't get me wrong... but I want something more that this site just can't provide me: a partner.
I am so much more than Hornysactogirl, I really am. How many of you knew I work 3 jobs and I am pre-med studying molecular biology with a 4.0 GPA? How many of you know that I am a single mom and still doing all that? Not many, I can tell you that. How many have stopped reading now that it is apparent that this is not a normal sex ridden blog entry?
I am such a sensitive person, I fall in love so easily with men who just want to use me as a cum recepticle and nothing more. It really hurts after a while and eventually you just become dead to it and stop feeling all together. I am at the brink of not feeling anything anymore, and I don't want to be that bitter chick.
My last boyfriend waited 6 MONTHS before telling me he had a wife and child. The guy before him called me while MURDERING his other girlfriend (actually got me all wrapped up with Pleasanton Homicide). My ex-husband would look at me dead in the face and tell me he was thinking of ways of killing me and our daughter. He also didn't work and spend all day fucking girls he met on this website while I was working 3 jobs. What bullshit!
I am frustrated with the way my life is going right now. I need more and I need to be seen as more than a life support system for a cunt. Maybe I'll be back, maybe not... all I know is that there has to be someone out there who really wants to listen to me and who may just want to fall in love with all of me, not just how talented my blowjobs are. Thank you for helping me learn.

No More One Night Love and Just One Last Kiss,

-e-

rm_thickone733 44M
18 posts
9/19/2005 7:28 am

well I just joined this site and you were for sure my favorite!! I'll miss your blogs!!!! I'm very impressed with the 3 jobs and going to school AND having a child. That is so awesome of you. I hope you find what you are looking for....I just wish I could have experienced one of your talented blow jobs....


rm_jxgonza01 44M
3 posts
9/20/2005 6:08 pm

well i guess thickone733 missed what you were talking about and proved exactly what your blog was all about. i hope that you and i can atleast continue our friendship. i was very honest with you in the very beggining and im still to this very day. i did know some of the things you mentioned in your blog. i took the time out to get to know you the person and not the sexperianced writter that you are as well. i agree, there is much more to life than laying back and recieving a mind blowing blow job. thats why i always try to become friends with tose i meet first before i go to bed with them. friendship to me is very important and definatley does make sex a lot more enjoyable and meaningful. but on the other hand, if it doesnt become a sexual thing but the friendship remains then we all win. i was honest and said i wasnt looking for a boy friend/girl friend relationship. you know my story and know how much i am still hurting inside. i wouldnt be good in a relationship cause i couldnt give 100% trust. but in a friendship all i need to know is im recieving respect and the respect im giving is being accepted as well. i hope you do find happyness. if we never talk again i understand. but when and if you ever need a friend, no matter how long, just call me, ill be there. you have my number and you have my email, use them when your ready. unlike thickone733 i do believe i experianced the best part of you ..... your friendship towards me. goodluck in all your goals and remember that both you and your daughter are the number one priorities. take good care of that first nd the rest will all fall into place.


rm_monkeykoder 32M

9/22/2005 9:19 pm

I wish I could say something to make you feel better but I just want you to know that not every guy in the world is like those you have met and I hope you meet someone that is good for you.


wirenut655 53M

9/27/2005 10:01 pm

I am new to this group and new to this blog. What started out entertaining has turned troubling. I hope you find what you are looking for girl. You seem to have so much going for you and so much drive. Check in from time to time and give us some good news.


rm_VWhound 48M
5 posts
10/13/2005 1:56 pm

It is okay to feel, but it is not okay to be an enabler. Don't loose touch of who you really are, and if you don't know who that person is, get help. I'm not trying to be mean, just the opposite. I'm 35 and it has only been the last 10 months that I have been able to look in the mirror and see "myself" looking back. I'm an alcoholic and have been my entire life, it was only when I realized that I didn't know who I really was that I started to know the real me. There is a 12 step program for everything sweetheart, and they really do work. If you are worried about how people will feel about you, fuck them (not literally). Your real friends will take you for who you are and what you are, not for what you want them to percieve you as. We all wear masks for others to guard who we really are. Sometimes the mask has been worn for so long it is nearly impossible for us to remember who WE really are. Take time to know you. Go to a therepist, it helps to have somebody to talk to who actually wants to help you out. Ultimately you are in charge. Who are you living for? Are you living for you and your children? Of are you living for others? You are in charge of you, nobody else has power over you unless you let them! You tired of being a life support system for a cunt? Stop enabling others into thinking that way. It sounds like you have very centered and realistic goals. If I come off sounding like an asshole, I'm sorry that is not my intention. Life is not about luck so I won't wish you luck. I will on the otherhand wish you hard work and success in life, because with hard work, there is success.


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