Glutton for Punishment  

HesterPrynne2 62F
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7/9/2005 12:58 pm

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Glutton for Punishment

I'll admit that I had an AdultFriendFinder setback. I met someone I cared about, found out he was totally lying to me, fell into someone else's arms for comfort. That person, who I have a lot of respect and affection for, left AdultFriendFinder and me after discovering that what he really wanted was a real relationship. If you asked me what I hope to find here, I would tell you it would be someone like him. Very sexy but decent and caring and insightful.

After thinking it over, I thought that instead of quitting AdultFriendFinder which is what I would normally do, I need to get right back on the horse. I revised my profile now and I doubt I will get many responses, which is totally okay. Racking up the numbers is not for me, and I'm definitely not as trusting as I was when I started.

DesertDwellerOne 67M

7/11/2005 9:15 am

Dear HP "Scarlet Letter."

I've heard it said that "Life is living, loving, losing and sometimes, letting go."

Just for the "L" of it, Life, isn't it also about laughing, looking and learning? Can it also be a mere longing in a labyrinth of languishment, and can't it every now and then be leaping with latent lauds as well?

Set backs can, from time to time, also be liberatingly lovely.

Enough play on words, here's to a great comeback for ya Hester.

Take good care of yourself, there's a future out there for you.


HesterPrynne2 62F

7/11/2005 11:17 am

Thanks DDO,

I may not even be correct about the lying, sometimes I can be a little too intense. I'm sure that from our conversations, you find that hard to believe LOL. Anyway, like you say, the setback was at least in part a good thing. I don't know whether I'll ever get the passion of the first one back, but if that hadn't crashed, I never would have met the second one. Both men, in very different ways, have had a profound effect on my life.

DesertDwellerOne 67M

7/12/2005 9:59 pm

Quote: "Both men, in very different ways, have had a profound effect on my life."

HP, that's very truthfully insightful, for if you weren't fully giving of yourself to them and absorbing their "souls," you'd be a "lost soul" yourself and not worthy of any self-respecting human endeavor.

You are a good person capable of good things. Never change your moral compass, because if you can't be you, who can you be?

HesterPrynne2 62F

7/13/2005 1:13 pm

Just to set the record straight, I found out that the first guy I mentioned was probably not lying. I convicted him on circumstantial evidence, my bad. That is the problem when you don't see someone very often, you really don't have the opportunity to talk about things that you should talk about or clarify any misunderstandings. That is one reason I can't do the infrequent meeting thing, even if it's just for lunch or a cup of coffee.

DesertDwellerOne 67M

7/13/2005 7:11 pm

Remember the movie: Same Time Next Year. ?

You might consider "Same Time Next Week."
Perhaps that would solve the communication problem potential.
And, it would give you a chance to reheat your engine for the
next round. Now, all you would need is a ravishing partner to
accomodate such an arrangement and fill in the gaps with succulent emails and snail mail to PO Boxes and wala, you've got yourself a rather thrilling life. Do you have someone who might "fit in" to that situation, anyone in mind HP?

Why are we trying to fit in when we were meant to stand out?


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