The bonnie Chronicles, Part Thirteen  

Gunslinger1954 63M
90 posts
5/28/2005 3:32 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The bonnie Chronicles, Part Thirteen

On the afternoon of May 27th, 2004 I had not a clue that beginning that evening my life would change forever. The experience would begin with meeting a blond girl who likes to drink and watch the World Series.

I had no clue that by late the next morning I would be totally smitten with a girl I hardly knew and even believe it could be love.

I had no idea that I was about to fall hopelessly in love, have wild sex for hours on end, learn to love music again, know how it feels to be loved, be adored by a stunningly beautiful woman and learn the heights of passion and know the depths of despair. All in seven months.

I was just a lonely man, doing the things I'm supposed to be doing; being a good father and husband and making money. Trying to find the symmetry and beauty in life in nature in an effort to substitute for the love I have never had at home. I had figured by then that love was not in the cards for me, at least not in this world.

I told my family of the affair and that I would eventually be with Bonnie. I love my kids and it really was a blow to them. Bonnie could see the anguish I was going through and wanted me to get back with my wife and kids. It devasted both of us but she insisted.

One of the last times I spoke with her, she was with a support group and told me that she didn't know how but she was going to help me get back with my family. The group would help her figure out how.

The last time I spoke with her, I picked up the phone and heard her beautiful voice say "this is going to be hard". She was in an office with other people there. She told me never to contact her or her family again.

I stopped her right there and said "Bonnie, if that's what you want, I'm going to honor your wishes. I want you to know that I love you and I will for the rest of my life", then hung up.

Two weeks later a woman saying she was her Mother called me. I picked up the phone and heard this: You murderer. You murdered Bonnie - it's all your fault. What happened, I said. "Bonnie commited suicide because of you" If you really loved her you would have never let it happen."

Sorry, folks, I'm going to have to talk about this more later. Can't do anymore now. Not a lot more to say, this is how it ended.

Love you all,

Gunslinger


Barbiebunny69 44F

5/29/2005 12:26 am

Gunslinger...
(big silent kisses & Huggs)
Thanks for bearing your soul


missy97330 48F

5/29/2005 3:37 pm

I am so very, very sorry.


Gunslinger1954 63M

6/1/2005 6:09 am

Sexyfit, my heart is also with you as I know you really do know how I'm feeling right now. I so hope the telling of this last part didn't cause you an extra measure of pain. Peace be with you.

Humboldthonny, I'm sad she didn't fight for us to be together a little harder too. The fighting in her life had just took it's toll, I think. There was nothing in her life she didn't have to fight for except the attention of men. The Dark Tower continues to stand. It's protector is beaten and bloody but still stands defiantly with his back to the Tower. And he still believes in love. And roses. And hugging you back.

Barbiebunny, I'll take those kisses and hugs and understand the silence. It's my hope that this baring of my soul will also help others in some way. Lots of lessons to be learned in life and for once in mine, I'm going to open up and share.

Missy, Thanks for reading my story and expressing your sorrow over what happened. It is a sad story. But there were good parts too. The passion will never leave me, it was a gift from her that will remain with me until I reach the clearing at the end of my own path.

May you all find such passion in your lives.


SexySquirterGirl 51F
102 posts
8/27/2005 4:58 am

It took me a while to get back to this, to read it... I'm truely sorry for your lost, your pain, your suffering... Big Hugs, and know you are in my thoughts and prayers, and I hope you able to someday find some peace!!! SquirterGurl aka Theresa


Gunslinger1954 63M

9/29/2005 6:10 am

Thanks for the hugs and prayers. I need 'em. - Hey, Bonnie was a squirter girl too. Love it!


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