I'm quite sad because  

Gossip_Anyone 42F
974 posts
6/26/2006 7:36 am

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6/29/2006 3:06 am

I'm quite sad because

I havent been able to workout like i used to. I'm getting that 'baby pooch' of fat from my belly button to half way down my pelvic area and on my lower back/waist like i was afraid of. I thought lupron-a drug thats anti estrogen...body builders use it.
Maybe this is just a bad day for hormonal levels.
I found a website that an ex bf posts on. he praised me for my oral gift but he said i was pretty. mediocre. i guess. this from a guy that just used me for 4 months and ditched me even though he made promises of taking care of my kids and i going as far as to bring up establishing college funds for my kids. all of it was just to appease me. he never loved me.

like the song goes
i m just another notch on your bedpost but you're just another line in a song

seeing as though my only gift in life is being able to come up with songs that fit the emotion or problem/situation at hand..

i have a story on that i need to share.

the beauty comment just reminds me of when i was growing up. i was ugly i admit it. i got the burn "is that your face or did your neck throw up?" comment every day.

and pizza face

but i have discovered my acne problem was due to my hormonal imballance. and my hyper sensitivity.
ive long since dropped the crying spells when people insult me. well people that mean something to me.

am i the only person that sees an ugly person in the mirror?

bigboysat23 47M

6/26/2006 3:48 pm

your only ugly if your heart is.....I have read alot of your posts and I find it hard to imagine a mind like yours as ugly...bigboy

penguinluvr 59M
1087 posts
6/26/2006 11:18 pm

I saw an ugly person in the mirror for years until I decided to do something about it... Then I got hit by a truck! Sometimes you just can't win. After i recovered from getting hit by the truck I decided that I'm good if not great, and if that wasn't good enough then they weren't good enough for me.


flagg134 37M
1582 posts
6/27/2006 9:16 am

Hardly I still see ugly in the mirror everyday I was always short as a child and caught so much flack for it. I'm 5'11" now but I remain thin as a rail I try to get in shape but somehow I can't seem to put on more then maybe 5 pounds at the most. I'm always told to eat more put on some weight yada yada. When I go to peoples houses they try to shove food plate after plate onto me. I eat alot so thats not what bothers me. Its that they see me as an abberation its quite a nuisance actually.


Dowd3 44M

6/27/2006 11:38 am

If you're ugly, why are you so funny?
If you're ugly, why aren't you cruel?
If you're ugly, why do you care?
If you're ugly, why is there the thunder of a mind?
If you're ugly, why are you unique?
If you're ugly, why are you playful?
If you're ugly, why don't I see it?
Because you are lovely and the proof is in the same mirror you look in to abuse yourself with.
Because you are gorgeous in the same heart you love with.

As always being too hard on yourself. I've seen the pics you've posted here and you're quite a catch if I may say so. If you can take a compliment, allow me to add a whole list of superlatives to fetching, head-turning, jaw-dropping, amazing, fascinating, enchanting, mesmerizing, drop-dead-sexy, lithe, heavenly, yummy, tasty, alluring, heart-stopping, and take-my-breath-away beautiful.

I'm not worthy to stand in the shadow you cast, unfit bask in the glow of your radiance, and unfit to grovel at your feet. You're a show-stopper, GA, and I'll wager lynch mobs could be stirred to defend your honor. Ships could be launched, and wars fought over the privilege to kneel at your feet. Fighter pilots would duel famous actors for your fair hand, and the powerful would be deposed at your capricious whim.

Cleopatra, Nefertiti, the Queen of Sheba, Jennifer Lopez, Angelina Jolie, Rene Zelwinger, Cathrine Zeta-Jones, and Jessica Simpson look like dirty peasants next to you....

Alright that may be laying it on a bit thick, but you get the point. You are beautiful every day and every night all the time.

Take care

Gossip_Anyone 42F

6/27/2006 1:40 pm

getting awefully thick in here...lol

Gossip_Anyone 42F

6/27/2006 1:41 pm

Alright that may be laying it on a bit thick, but you get the point. You are beautiful every day and every night all the time.

Take care

wow...you made me laugh and cry. dammit

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