Can't Win  

rm_GoodbnBad4u 47F
96 posts
8/22/2006 7:01 pm

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9/4/2006 8:54 pm

Can't Win

Do you ever feel like no matter what you do you are in a losing position? I am in a relationship with a guy I love very much, but I sometimes shy away from these feelings because I am scared what our future holds. He has an issue with trust - mainly because of my presence on this site. This site was a condition about our relationship months ago - I would meet him in the middle, if he would be willing to give things up for me in return. I don't know how he feels for me anymore - I can't imagine treating someone you love the way he has been treating me lately. I am anything but perfect - and by no means the best prize available on this site or in real life. My worth right now is zero because I am not finding work and not contributing to this household. But, I feel that keeping the house clean, his laundry done, up every morning making his coffee, his lunch, his water jug, rolling his cigarettes for him,etc... but I can't do anything right in his eyes. I don't know what else to do - I am not going to allow another man to tell me what I am going to give up for him - I have given up myself a time or two in my past, and I am not going to re-build again. When things are good, this is the best relationship I can imagine but when things are bad, it is the worst relationship I've been in - the ones in the past I didn't even let get to me the way this one does. And, some things that I have thought I have known seem in question to me. I am discouraged about a lot of things in my personal life right now and I keep hoping it will get better but I don't know how. I have always had a really good support system too and I don't really feel I have that anymore - but I understand that too - everyone has their own lives and honestly, I can only get myself back to feeling my own self worth. Thanks to anyone who reads this, I just needed a venting place tonight - not sure it's how I'll feel tomorrow but not sure it isn't either. Take care everyone while I take care of me.

Torn between the good girl/bad girl thing

2funtoyz 63M
252 posts
8/22/2006 10:32 pm

Hi bad, I know what you mean about a relationship that can be both good and bad.
When it is good, it can be the greatest thing since sliced bread.
But when it's bad, you can't seem to run far enough.
Communication and trust are probably the most important items that a relationship can be built on, and sustain on.
Good luck, we are here if you need us.

BursaCarnyMicro 58M
24 posts
8/23/2006 7:10 am

your torn, scared to hold on even more frightend to let go. i think we all have been there, and there is no easy answer, you have to trust your heart. to hell with what makes sense.

if he gave up the thing you asked him to tomorrow, and you left the site.would you be happy?

theres no dubt that you would be missed by all of us here. But you need to do whats best for you and your sweet lovely daughter.

No matter what we go through i hope that we can remain friends first and formost.

and ive told you time and time again if you ned to vet, a sholder to punch or a caring hand to wipe away the tears, you can call anytime.


ohcurious14 60M  
1684 posts
8/24/2006 9:41 am

You, me and NB need to have a serious talk Bad.

rm_rufus1611 76M
2 posts
9/4/2006 6:34 am

Sounds like you are giving much more than you get back, unless the sex is so outstanding youdon't want to give uo this one-sided relationshio.
Toss his laundry, cigarettes, water bottle,, his lunch, and his ass out the k\door.
But a good vibrator and enjoy yourself. You ain't getting anything from this mope you can'y do your self.
Good luck.

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