The burned hand teaches best  

Fox4aKnight1 44F
1176 posts
4/5/2006 10:48 pm

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4/7/2006 11:03 pm

The burned hand teaches best


Does it matter ....I don't know
I am talking to a dear friend tonight.

I want to give some background, the guy I love.......... at the time when I first started likeing him .... she was a good friend of his and had met him offline. So I set out to get to know her and see if he was for real. To see if he was a good friend, to see also if she liked him cause if she did I don't like to "steal". I spoke to her and she said no she was not interested in him. Then eventually me and her became friends ....really good friends. Now I sit here talking to her. Discussing guys. I have seen her go though some hard times lately and I found from her that the guy that I love left for work and again like before never even bothered to email me or phone me or nothing. I guess I am not really mucxh of anything to him. I noticed he hadn't been online and asked her about it. She said he was gone. For many weeks. Wy am I not suprised. I feel like Someone who sticks my hand out again and gets it burnt just like before. I am not sure what to do anymore. Confusion and pain. I at least he would say goodbye or something. Or tell me he was leaving. It was the first hint of it that I heard from her. I won't give up altogether but this really smarts.... and here it started off such a good day too. Well I am kinda in shock not upset just shock. But well I can't win for loseing. More later after me and her finish bitching bout men ....and were sending kitty cay vids back and forth ....mostly bloopers and what not anything to help us laugh.

update

aafter talking to my friend and cheering her up a little and scaring her caat half to death with calling his name over the speakers ....I think I am now going to go take a shower and just cry ......the guy I care about who called me friend is going away for 3 months work ....he left Monday.... I just found out tonight....from my good friend. No email no IM no phonecall from him. Guess I just don't mean that much to him. Whats new fuck it. I am gonna do my best not to love like that again. never ever give my heart like that again. I wish I could just not care. In time the depression will set in and I won't .....

its_a_go 38M

4/5/2006 11:32 pm

sorry to hear. probably in a bit of a surreal funk after this. burnt sounds kinda like intentional cruelty though, do you think he's trying to be cruel? legs like that, hmm, he's got issues.


Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/6/2006 1:28 am:
its ......not sure if he was trying to be krewl or not. Not sure bout anything anymore. Feel like shit ....

its_a_go 38M

4/6/2006 7:44 am

Keep your chin up. The bad thing about feeling for others is that it opens you up to where you just want to shut down. Its been tough for me the last few years to really 'fall' for someone. I've been down that road and it ended up being a dead end, with an ambush. But, y'know we learn from it, and I doubt the best thing for me was to close up to people. Doesn't set you up too well for the next best thing. Hell, I've decided that relationships follow the buddhist mantra of "ones", everything is a series of 'one' moment. So you meet The One, then later you meet The One, and later still you meet "The One" and so on and so on ad nauseum. It seldom has anything to do with us personally. Try not to get depressed, you've got much too nice a personality to spend it upset. Watch some Harry Potter, or read "Still Life with Crows" (my absolute favorite book, ever. (aside from a few others hehe)) that always cheers me up.


Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/6/2006 7:55 am:
its,

Whos the author of the crows book hun? I read to escape alot. Been reading some the assasin series today. Robin Hobb, Fitz feels close kinda ...LOL and I still haven't slept been up all night andfeel worn to nothing... but have a hair appointment this afternoon around 2pm ...its now 11 but I still need to take a showeer and what not. Wonder if mom would be kind enough to take me to my appointment do I can take some benaryll...nawwww I won't be so lucky ...gonna have to drive there myself. *sigh* ....I am gonna try not to get depressed ...but I will ....I can just try to make it less edgy. ...hugs
kelli

its_a_go 38M

4/6/2006 10:49 am

Crows was done by Douglas Preston and Lincoln Childs. They also wrote Relic. Its part of a series that is absolutely incredible. Preston's writing is just soooo immersive.

Take a nice hot shower with some of those bright smelling shower gels, that'll cheer up even the gloomiest soul.

Its beautiful out! A little sun should cheer you.


Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/6/2006 3:33 pm:
Oh it did I went to get my perm but now I am tired. I put the top down and put the sun glasses on and just had a nice ride out to the folks to say hi and then now anm back home. LOL I am suprised I haven't crashed yet LOL.

curious082385 32F
4925 posts
4/7/2006 12:35 am

Just hugs sweetie. Keep your chin up. The holes left behind by the people we care about can be hard ones to patch up, but in time....


Fox4aKnight1 replies on 4/7/2006 11:03 pm:
Yup curious ....time will help hugsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

rm_maddness444 42M
2 posts
4/15/2006 1:40 pm

Cheer up? All men are not out there to burn you? Keep your head up you will find that right guy.

PJ


rm_maddness444 42M
2 posts
4/15/2006 1:41 pm

The right guy might be right around the corner. You just need to pay more attention. Take care.


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