My Birthday!
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Posted:Nov 15, 2005 9:51 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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Yup it's that time again. I always hate birthdays. I know most people love them. They love presents, and surprises. I don't get surprises, especially on my birthday. I'm lucky to get a phone call. Today my partner calls me to remind me to put the jumper cables in the car so the landlord doesn't trip on em when they go to check the gas meters...but not once does he say happy birthday. What the fuck? I know he didn't forget because it's all he talked about yesterday. Oh I know I'll probably get a nice present, but could he take 5 minutes out of his damn day to say goodmorning beautiful, happy birthday? I swear back in the day he used to be so thoughtful. I don't care about presents and I don't care about money or dinner or a movie or any of that shit. All I want is to know you remember me enough to do the little things that are supposed to make birthdays more special.
My father always made birthdays a big deal with my mother. As she got older he just quit mentioning her age, but he still did the little things, a red rose on her pillow when she woke in the morning, breakfast in bed, calling from work just to make sure we all remembered and then calling her to make sure she knew he remembered.
Some people will never learn that it's the little things in life that make birthday so special.
Not to mention...his birthday was in September. I called him at work to tell him happy birthday, I left a card on his pillow....and still the first thing I hears was "Yay, it's my birthday....what did you buy me?" Of course I got him presents, but it's the same thing every year and I've learned over time that if I don't save up for something spectacular I get the big huge guilt trip of not putting enough thought into his birthday. I think he's a selfish asshole, which is probably why he and I aren't married and probably never will be.
Anyhow, rant off...Happy Birthday to me, at least I have good friends online who never forget my birthday. I got a lot of emails and in my game that I play I got a lot of mails and cute little shit in my mailbox from all my guildies so that makes me feel a little better. Might have to find out where they all live so I can make a connection....haha!
I swear...I'm moving...gonna go where the love's at!
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Sometimes it seems so foreign
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Posted:Nov 12, 2005 1:04 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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Have you ever encountered someone who you felt you just clicked with? Yet whenever it came time to speak with them you just really didn't know what to say? Why is it we can talk so openly and freely with someone who is just another name, yet when it comes to an active interest we find ourselves tongue tied and unsure?
I was speaking with a friend the other nite who I am hoping to get aquainted with and it just seemed that everything I said came out wrong. I found myself overanalyzing time responses and when they had to go that I just couldn't get comfortable. We played some games and all I could think was man, this guy must think I'm a total dumbass with nothing between my ears.
The strange thing is, I had no problem talking to this person in an open chatroom and flirting and just being myself, but when it came time to close the doors and just be the two of us, I found myself gearing towards more serious if not sinister subjects and just couldn't get back in the swing of the fun, flirty chat we were sharing in public.
Sometimes I get the urge to just be seductive and sexual and then I kinda freeze up. I mean if someone's profile says they've tried cyber sex but it isn't the same thing...does that mean don't even try? I know every situation is different but I guess I just tend to worry that if I am too flirty and too seductive that I am going to totally turn the person off or they are going to reply with something totally embarrassing for me. I don't take rejection well so I tend to avoid the possibilities of being rejected.
I know most would say, just be yourself let the rest follow...but why is it so hard when you have an active interest in someone as more than a piece of ass, but as a person?
Anyone else have this problem? If so how do you handle it?
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The Difference between Sex and a Relationship
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Posted:Nov 9, 2005 10:09 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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After writing an email to a new friend I was reading something I added and thought perhaps it would be a good opener for a blog entry. So many people get sex and love mixed up. They say they just want to fuck yet they repetively try to obtain intimacy that was never offered to begin with. Here is my definition explaining what the difference means to me, to whomever may give a damn. Hope you enjoy. Your imput is most welcome.
(Part of an email to a very special new friend)
To me there are two different levels of fucking. One requires just my pussy, mouth and ass while the other requires my all the above and adds my heart. I can easily fall in love with a man who I have slept with if I allow myself to be truly intimate. Therefore I do not exchange pillowtalk or go on romantic dates with men I only talk to when it comes time to fuck. I only give that part of myself away to those truly worthy of my affections.
A man truly worthy of my affections whether it be just friends with benefits or more gets all of me. My heart, my mind, my soul, my body. He gets to see beyond the fleshy folds of my orafices and gets the grand tour of my brain and my heart. My fantasies, my desires, my goals in life become known. I share my most intimate thoughts with him and when I make love to him, it is an explosion of fireworks and chemistry. I take my time, I relish the moment and memorize every part of him for future reference when he can't be around or has decided to move on. He holds a special place inside my heart always even if things do not work out. Throughout my lifetime I will stop and take moments to remember him. The sound of his voice, the smell of his favorite cologne. The way his body looked in the moonlight or the way his hair fell across his face. The touch of his lips against mine and other favorite body parts. The sounds he made when we made love, the way he took me when we wanted it rough. All those things I keep locked away in my special place to take out from time to time and reflect and wonder what life has done for him, where he is now and if he ever does the same for me.
I am like a rose that has just started to bloom. At first when you see it you think, wow what an amazing picture, but all you see is color. But as the day grows into night and I reach my full potential you begin to see my petals open up, my fragrance permeates the air and you begin to find that deep within there is so much more to me. You begin to wonder if you should cut its stem and place it in a vase to look at often until it fades away or if you should just pass by it on occasion to remember the moment you shared. Sometimes that rose will mean so much to you for whatever reason or other that you will find a way to uproot it and place it in your own yard so that year after year you are able to watch it bloom again.
There is so much more to me than meets the eye, if you can get close enough to see what's inside.
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Today has been a very good day.
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Posted:Nov 9, 2005 2:47 am
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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I've had a great day. Played some Battlegrounds in wow with my boy Ricofoley and had a chance to troll my new group a bit and check out some of the awesome posts there. There was one guy who kinda caught my eye through the day and I posted some comments on some of the threads he posted on. Of course I didn't think for a second he'd be interested in me, I'm not exactly the sexiest thing in the world, but I thought I'd give him a shout out anyhow and see if anything transpired over the boards.
Well tonite as I was checking my mail one last time to see if anybody interesting had written, I got a message from him. I must say my reaction surprised even me and I hope I wasn't too enthusiastic in my response. The only drawback is the distance between us, but other than that I believe from what I have seen that he may be right. He may be perfect for me. Just what the doctor ordered.
Don't get me wrong I didn't come here looking for that special someone but I think in the back of our minds each of us is looking to expand our horizons. If we're involved, but here, no matter how discreet we'd like things to be, there is always that thought in the back of our minds, that maybe...just maybe that person is out there and we'll find them.
I may have found mine, but then again I may find that he's just a good friend. Overall I am going to try not to get too wrapped up very soon, something very difficult for the social butterfly personality I have, however I also know that all good things come with time and effort.
For the moment I think he's sexy and I really hope to get to know him better.
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Let me introduce myself
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Posted:Nov 7, 2005 11:27 pm
Last Updated:Mar 5, 2006 9:27 pm
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Hi. Besides the stuff in my profile, I figured you all should know there is more to me than just sex. I love to ride horses, write, read, I play world of warcraft and Final Fantasy Online. I'm crazy at times and just like to have fun.
The reason I created this Blog and titled it let's play is because that's exactly what I want to do. I want everyone to feel free to post anything and everything and to just fool around. The more personality the better the fun.
If you think I'm sexy and just want to say hey...go for it. I may at times post stories I've written or random thoughts that enter my mind. I may even post shit I do in my RPG games or people I meet. If you wanna know what's goin on in the life of me, here's the place to go!
I look forward to chatting with you all soon.
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