My Thoughts on Living In Jesusland  

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4/19/2006 6:21 pm
My Thoughts on Living In Jesusland

So I am a twenty two year old guy that lives in New Mexico. I have spent my life around Baptists and extremely conservative people. Not that that is a bad thing. It kind of keeps my feet on the ground.

As I sit here and write this I think about how fake people are over the internet. Hell, its so easy to be some one you aren't when your only means of expression are your words, no photos, no videos, no voice, no real interaction other than words.

I think about that and then I think about what I'm about to say and I hope that people don't take the wrong way. I'm afraid that what I want to say is going to sound fake, but its not so please take it for what its worth.

Now coming back to living in Jesusland. I know that term is not by any means original but it is true. I don't want to explain it too much right now but here are lyrics that will help you understand. Go to and do a search for NOFX, look for their song called "Leaving Jesusland". For any one that lives around where I do you'll understand.

But I digress.

I came on here in hopes of some one reading this and expressing some of the same sexual thoughts that I do. I am about to detail one or two fantasies that I have. I'm a little bummed out living out in this hell hole because I feel that I am the only person that feels this way. And I know if I were to say anything to my friends and most of the people I hang out with I would be commiting social suicide.

Like I said earlier, I am a twenty two year old dude. What I didn't say is that I am bi-curious, whatever that means. I have had sexual experiences with other guys and I loved them. I found that I love giving blow jobs, and that I love the feel of cum gushing into my mouth and down my throat...even the feel of it on my face. But one thing I have never done is anal sex. Logic dictates that I should try this with another man because I like doing other things and I fancy myself to be open minded.

Fantasy number one: I want to be with another man. Preferably I would like to be in a threesome with another man and a woman. I have been in something like this before, but the only problem is that we didn't have sex, but we did engage in alot of fore-play. I want to know what it is like to give another man a blowjob while recieving one from some one else. I want to know what it is like to feel a cock in my ass. I want to know what is to feel the real thing. I want to be having sex with with a woman while I'm getting pounded from behind.

Is that too unreasonable? I hope not. I wish not.

Fantasy number two: If any one has ever seen Reqium for a Dream then they will know the sex scene where the main lady role (sorry, I can't think of her name right now) basically becomes a crap whore.

Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to have anything to do with crack, but I would like to be a whore.

She is there with another lady and they are being told what to do by at least seven other people. All of this is sexual in nature. The thought of that turns me on something fierce.

Going to a party and then having every one there take advantage of me would be hot. being surrounded by everyone. Feeling people touch me. Feeling people fill me. Feeling people use me however they wanted. Letting people force me to make them happy. Doing everything they wanted me to do and then watching them walk away from me while I lay there in the after glow.

Well, that basically what I live with in a nut shell. If any one were to read this and feel the same way please let me know. It would be most uplifting.


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