Is it me?  

Eastside__Devil 38F
420 posts
4/13/2006 9:56 pm

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4/24/2006 5:00 pm

Is it me?

I found out tonight that a person I know killed themself.

I don't know what to do or feel or say.

I think that i was the last person they were intamite with.

this is the thrid time this has happend

am i the kiss of death?

rm_Organous 32M
3 posts
4/14/2006 7:11 am

Keep in mind that I have never met you personally, only read what you write here. However, I am a depressed person who has had suicidal thoughts & attempts throughout my life. Going by what you write, it appears that you have a dominant, aggressive personality, and that can easily translate to the people around you feeling worthless if they do not also have dominant personalities. You seem rather introverted without much empathy, so you may not even notice signs that other people may be troubled.

I do not wish to actually accuse you of anything, though, as I have never met you. This is simply my guess based on what I've read. If I happen to be right, you may be able to use that knowledge. If not, well, I took a shot.

rm_PeanutJackie 37F
1286 posts
4/14/2006 10:29 am

very sorry to hear this Liz. I don't think you are the kiss of death at all.

"I am beautiful no matter what you say, words can't bring me down. So don't you bring me down today."

wntngmore4us2 48M/47F

4/14/2006 10:51 am

Hey ESD, Don't be hard on yourself for what someone has done. I to have had friends do the unthinkable. For awhile I thought it was me or something I could/should have done. Just remember it was their choice as much as that sucks to here. Take it easy. Very sorry to hear the news.

rm_4playfella 43M

4/16/2006 7:01 am

Hey Eastside, my deepest sympathies. There is very little to say that could be of comfort at a moment like this. You just need to rely on your friends for awhile. Hopefully you can take comfort in the Tao.
HEY ORGANOUS! I feel that I can say with certainty that you are not a psychologist. DO NOT suggest that ANYONE is to blame because of their personality. People who commit suicide have an illness of different sorts and need treatment. It is one of the most terrible things in the world and many people have been touched but it is pretty rare to drive someone to the brink.
Your right, you don't know Eastside and your "observation" is way off the mark. I do personally know her and she is Not introverted. Dominant/aggressive? That is a realitive term. I find her fun and confident. Someone who will stand up for herself and have opinions, but not malisiously put people down. She does seem aware of the feelings of those she knows and cares for.
I have to end here because I could go on and on...and this becoming not worth it. I just have to speak up when someone says something so insensative and asinine. Good luck in your treatment. Don't worry what others think of you.

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