my morning blog about words  

Dark_Cat_MCMLXXV 42M
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3/29/2006 6:59 pm

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my morning blog about words

I know you feel blue because one word I said. I know I destroyed everything I built once for you and only you because of a word. I see your eyes dropping crystals tears of inner pain. Pain I will never be able to repay...

I'm looking into your eyes seeking for your soul. I only found some pieces of a broken world. Your shiny world few moments ago just scattered into a nothingness when you heard that word. What did I say? How could I say that word without knowing it will hurt you?

I wish I could take back that word. I wish I was a mighty wizard or a great scientist to go back in time and cut my tong before I spoke that word. I wish I could keep your smile forever... But now, your smile is living only in my memory...

I cry with you. The autumn wind blows in my soul. I lost your smile. I lost my own source of happiness!

I scream inside my world in the agony of the pain your tears brought it to me. I was betrayed by my own selfishness.

You trusted me and let me within your soul! You gave me tenderness and hope! You gave me a reason to live the eternal addiction to your smile! And I repayed your kindness with one word. One word I wished I never heard about!

I stopped my tears. I looked at you. I took your face in my palms. I feel your tears burning my skin. We cross our looks. I feel your sadness. I say, "forgive me, my love, because I cannot live without your smile!". Your tears are still moistening your eyes. You lips are showing a faint smile. My heart becomes to feel the hope again. I smile at you and kiss you gently. I feel your lips and I recall their sweet fragrance. I could have lost that feeling just with one word.

Please, let me back inside your being, I beg you! I felt the cold being outside and I had my punishment for my arogance. Do whatever you want with me only to let me once again next to your heart! I cannot promise you a thing. I cannot I won't hurt you anymore. But I can say I cannot live without your love.

Please, smile again and love me again! You are my world, my air, my light. Without you I am cold and dark. You are my only hope!

HBowt2 60F

3/30/2006 5:20 am

It's hard when you feel there is only one person who is your air and your light.....I hope you find happiness...

Dark_Cat_MCMLXXV replies on 3/31/2006 12:40 am:
It's hard but more pleasant than having more than one person filling your being with the gentle touch of love.

caressmewell 54F

3/30/2006 1:23 pm

Ditto what HBowt2 says..I understand how you feel

Dark_Cat_MCMLXXV replies on 3/31/2006 12:45 am:
If you understand me, than you loved at least once in your life and that means you didn't lose your feelings during your path through this life. That can make me happy! I saw too many people losing their feelings somewhere on that path... Now, they are only machines or, even worse, they don't care about the person next to them feelings.

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