Thank you all...  

Dalmy67 49F
20 posts
8/13/2006 8:04 pm

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9/18/2006 5:35 pm

Thank you all...

Was great to hear yr responses to my other post. Appreciate all yr comments.

So, despite any misgivings and doubts on my part, I am still pursuing my exploration. But I feel like I am just going through the motions. Maybe thats just because I really haven't found anything that really strikes my fancy. Or that I have, but its not available to me. Or it is the fall-out from 2 yrs of lies and deceit.

Also, I was doing this before as part of a cpl - or I thought I was part of a cpl. And that was very important to me. I felt safe and secure exploring my sexual fantasies with a man I thought loved and cared for me. But it was all a lie. He was just a user and a manipulator - of major proportions mind you - a real expert. I was totally inept to defend myself against him.

But the truth came out and I know I am better for it. And I can move on and will be a better person for it. But what do I do about my sexual explorations now?? How did I get by on my own??

lissi888888 53F
1401 posts
8/13/2006 9:14 pm

You got by then because you felt safe. Now you have to figure out what you want and what makes you feel safe and go from there. It's not easy but it is obtainable and you can do it. It may take a little time...but have faith in yourself


PS...trusting somebody that was untrustworthy is not your just remember that please. The person that broke trust is the one at fault just have to go past that and move on to your full potential. Living well is the BEST revenge...don't you agree?

Dalmy67 49F

8/14/2006 5:54 pm

Yes, you are absolutely right. I know I will get better and move on way before he will. He is still stuck is his web of lies just like he has been for years. I am just glad I am no longer in it!!!

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