laborday weekend~~~  

CutieLadee 35F
25 posts
9/7/2005 1:36 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

laborday weekend~~~

I sure had an eventful weekend 
This time I promise, MORE than just ex stories. Well, ex is included, but ex, and then some. Yeaaaaah~
Friday - I went out to my friend's bday party. I didn't know her too well, so I met alotta new people. danced and had so much fun. among them, I met a boy. He was very nice. and happened to be a Korean Argentinian boy. very interesting. He speaks spanish, english, and korean. I spoke korean with him mostly. he was cute. and nice. and... i think that's about it. just... nice.

Sat - my sis and her husband decided to leave me home alone for a day, so guess who i called. yes, da ex! I called him, telling him that they were outta town, and he comes, and of course, as soon as we see each other we get it on. it was so hot. we haven't been with each other for 2 weeks and it felt like forever. I was SO horny this whole week and so was he. we're not used to not fucking so much. We fucked hard and quick cuase our friend was on her way. We finished up, with me wetting my blanket, sheets, and the mattress. I had to soap that shit and wash the others, and dry it out. Our friend got here just in time. She happened to bring some maj with her... so we smoked out a little. I cooked for them and spent a nice saturday just chillin at the house. She left to go hang out with her boy, and my ex slept over. we had another session of some good ol fucking. He hasn't seen me in a while...and he kept telling me how beautiful I looked, my skin glowing, my hair coming down to my tits... I felt so beautiful being in his arms. he fucked me so good. I love the way he makes me come so much.

Sun- after we went to church, we went to one of his friends apt to party. it was SO nice!! The apt had a nice balcony looking down to city lights and the beach, we drank wine and pina coladas and salsa dancing, and just having fun. it was so nice. He was dancing quite friend with a girl, I got a bit jealous. I mean, let me tell you, i'm really not the jealous type. At clubs, I TOTALLY do not mind him dancing, yes, freak dancing, with other girls. mostly because he dances like a white boy, cuase he is one, and I'd rather dance with better dancers. but honestly, I NEVER got jealous before. But I was sitting out on the balcony, facing the window that looked into the living room, and I saw his hand going down her back and them twirling and turning and looking into each others eys.... it drove me nuts. I drank a bit more and eventually went inside to tell him that I was tired and that I wanted to go home. On our way home, I told him. I told him that I got jealous. and of course he says the usual, "she's got nothing on you. you know how i feel about you." well it's not really that I care how he feels about me or whatever. and, that shouldn't be the issue, I just never seen him touch another girl... like that... and it was kinda disturbning... yet a hardhit reality. that we are broken up. and that it SHOULDN"T bother me, cuase it'll happen. he tells me how great i am, but i don't wanna hear him say those things. We go to his place. and i'm laying next to him, he's trying to hug me and i'm pulling away, crying. but eventually we fuck, and we fucked so hard. he dug in so deep inside of me, and we talked so dirty. everything came out during sex. As I rode him, and my cum was dripping down his balls, I scream, " I hate you, I hate you, you treat me like shit. you're suchan ass hole. you fucking jerk,I hate you." and I rode and rode him, hard and good. and we went to sleep.

Monday - I woke up, and I had gotten a text msg from the guy that I met on Friday. I called him back, and he wanted to hang out. I spoke to him in korean, so my ex wouldn't undrestand, I told him that we could hang out in a few hours. hung up and laid back down into my ex's arm. I left my ex's place and went on a date with the guy. movie and dinner.

I... I felt guilty. but we aren't together. we're just fucking... and the new guy, he's really nice, on friday, when I didn't even know him that well, afte the club we all went out to eat, and he paid for me without even letting me know. (i liked it).
I told the ex that I had gone on a date and he was happy for me. He asked me how the other guy was, and I said he was nice but whatever. kinda boring. He told me that I should give him another chance and at least get to know him better. Why does he always encourage me to go out with other guys and then turn around and tell me thta he loves me?
I just want more in life. I want more in love. that's not love. saying i love you and then saying you can go date other men. I want my love to fight for me, for my love for him. I want him to say, no i'm the only one that's gonna love you. isn't it suppose to be that way?

wow... this was a long post.
it wasn't suppose to be all about my ex....
thanks for reading....

rm_liltigbigdog 50M/45F

9/7/2005 8:56 am

I think you need to get your mind off the ex...

rm_luke69iner 49M
3275 posts
9/9/2005 12:00 am

True Love is incredibly difficult to find Cutie. That's why most people probably settle for something less. I hope you find it and i hope it lasts forever for you. I've already given up on finding true love.

I think your boyfriend does probably love you in his own way. As you said he doesn't love you anywhere close to what you're looking for though. I think he cares about you and wants you to be happy though.

Best wishes


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cuddleboy69 50M

5/12/2006 3:39 pm

Sounds like you are playing with both yourself and him.
Sounds like you are describing all the emotions you would have of someone you are with, not the someone who you don't want to be with. Also try to consider your ex's way of thinking ... maybe he doesn't think exactly like you. Maybe he's as confused as you are but doesn't exactly show it. Or maybe not.
I for one have never fought for women. It's just not my style, not all men do that sort of thing.
Anyway it sounds like you are (ok were ... this was like a year ago ) hurting yourself alot with this. I guess that's ok for a while while you are young, to have hot sex, with all the confusion and crazy feeling. I guess I know that feeling, but now that I'm an "old man" I'm completely not interested in that. It's just too much pain and distraction.

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