Happiness Is....  

CuriousKitty675 43F
285 posts
8/8/2005 4:00 pm

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Happiness Is....


I have not been able to stop smiling. I have rediscovered some emotion. I have rediscovered happiness once more. I'm not sure what it was or if it was a combination of things but I'm glad it happened. I had a fantastic weekend and it has changed everything. My outlook on life is no longer bleak. I have hope for the future instead of endless years of the same numb emptiness. It wasn't as if some extrodinary happened this weekend to make this happen either. It was simple things. Small things that just all came together at the right time in the right way to make everything shine in a whole new light. Perhaps my period of darkness is at last coming to a close. Maybe I can finally shut the door on the pain of the past that has numbed me to all feeling. Start a new chapter. I'm still worried, wondering what horrible thing is lying around the corner to swamp me with fetid ugliness of life, to make me pay for the joy I just had. But I'm trying to ignore that fear for the moment. I need this. I need to feel again. I need to feel alive once more. The fact that I have noone to share it with doesn't seem like a bad thing. I've always been an independant person. I've never really needed to have someone at my side 24-7. Constant companionship is not what I seek. It would be nice from time to time to have someone around. Someone close. But until the time is right I know I can do just fine alone. I will not rush things. I will not pine away at lonliness. I will live in the moment and feel what the world has to give.

CuriousKitty675 43F
365 posts
8/16/2005 6:47 am

Thank you Sakrilej! As day to day life tries to creep the ugliness back in it is nice to read a comment like this to bolster my spirit once more. You are a gem!


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