Can't keep up w/Myself  

BlueLovinLatina 31F
237 posts
1/15/2006 11:02 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Can't keep up w/Myself

I'm in a deep hole of shit and I cant claw my way up. Me and Andrew broke up. I called him on Thursday and he acted as if he hated me more than he hated laziness. So...i'm not going to try that again.

I was drunk that day and after I called him I got a call from this guy I met a week before when i was with a couple of my friends. And I ended up accepting to be his girlfriend. So I ended up staying in Houston longer than i was supposed to stay. As a matter of fact I'm still here. I wanna go back to San Antonio...desperately. I'm dealing with more drama...cause hes trying to figure out how this is supposed to work. Sometimes I'm so annoyed by how complicated he's putting it and I wanna say let's just not be together, but he's a nice guy...really sweet. I'm TIRED of it all though! I'm TIRED!!!! He was like, youre such a nice girl...I like you so much...blah blah. If I'm such a nice girl why do I have rotten luck? Why does everybody have to tell me that I'm a nice girl? Why cant they tell me- youre the girl of my dreams or something???

Bahhh...! I'm so upset right now! I wanna go to San Antonio Already...maybe I can avoid Jack* (the guy I was talking about in the previous paragraph) that way.

My birthday was blown to crap. first love guy didnt call me like he had promised to. With his crap about that I deserve better. What does he know?

I need a serious vacation by the sea. In an island where its only me as a guest and everybody else is my staff...or something...away from noise and drama. Where I can enjoy the oceanic sounds and the breeze.

Lawrence_Wolf 35M

1/16/2006 1:39 am

Ironic that you talk about bad luck now. Read my comment on your post called Thirst. You know, its not always easy but you have to be towards others as you want others to be towards you. In some cases I know this is hard for people because there are cases where they are perfectly nice and everything to other people, but then they get shit in return. So then get rid of those fuckers!

Anyhow... you are dream girl believe me! I'm not neccesarily saying that you are the one meant for me, but you are meant for someone out there. If you look at my profile you will see that I am looking for a latin/asian/white female. But ofcourse I haven't seen you, I don't know you etc etc. Therefore you most likely are some lucky guy out there's dream girl.

I know from experience that you get TIRED from searching for the one. But normally what happens is that when you least expect it, it hits you, and he comes into your life, and so becomes your life.

Think about what I'm saying. I believe if you really think logically about it you will agree. Ofcourse I don't know what goes on in your life. I don't know your issues or non-issues. You don't have to tell me either. But think about what I said. And a reply here would be very much appreciated Blue.

This is Lawrence (of the) Wolf

Idunno135 34M

1/17/2006 6:48 am

Well if your still in houston how about a trip to galveston or somewhere more worth while. Take a break from everybody who's pushing stress on you and relax.

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