Me Chapter One 9/11 my experience  

BlueIceGargoyle 61M
135 posts
9/7/2006 11:22 am

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Me Chapter One 9/11 my experience

Hello, greetings to one and A/all. As promised here is my 1st installment of who I am and my life and times growing up. I debated for a while if I should do this in chronological order or just to write about things in my life as they came to me, well with 9/11 being just a short few days away I figured that I would give you the events that took place as I saw and experienced them that day. I want to at this time apologize to any who may find this to be disturbing and or upsetting. Ok it is now 6am I have just arrived at work and am checking to see if roll call is posted and as usual it was not ready yet, so I go into the locker room and begin to put my uniform on and as I buckle on my gun belt thinking it is great to be back on patrol after spending about two years doing desk duty this being my third day back. I go to check for the roll call again and find that I have been assigned to the Times Square Subway Station with a partner for the day. We stand roll call and are now enrout to post (for those who do not know it I was at the time a NYC Police Officer). We arrived on post and went to our rush hour condition at the southbound IRT platform. All is going as usual busy boring ..... and then the call comes over the radio a plane had hit the trade center, I as did most I believe thought it to be a small plane and an accident . I call my brother from the platform and tell him about it and to turn on the news. I hang up and continue to listen and the next call comes over that another plane had hit the trade center, I knew then that this was no accident and sent my partner to call our command to get permission to go assist at the site, he called and we were denied, people are still going about their day as usual, but then some come down with news about a plane crashing into the pentagon. I send my partner again to ask permission to go to thee trade center and again was denied. I waited a short while and called the command to make the request myself and was instructed to remain on post. I went back to my partner, and then heard the calls that the towers were collapsing, another call evidently a supervisor calling and saying that he still had men in there, I receive instructions to evacuate and close the station. people are confused they need to get to work they say and when told about the trade center were more confused .... some insisted that they had to get to work still, others totally stunned walk away. The station is now closed and numerous calls coming over the radio, people asking question after question most are confused some walk around in a daze, others fear trying to leave Manhattan worried that either the bridges or tunnels would be bombed. The day drags on and we are eventually relieved for a meal break, most do not eat we sit in front of the television watching the news. It is now just after 11pm and the day shift is told that we are being released and that our tour had been modified for the next day, that we would have to be in for a 4am start and our tours were now to be 12 1/2 hours with a face to face wait relief all vacations, leaves, excusals, and days off were canceled. I started my journey home by train as it was the way I traveled to work, I rode the train stunned, tired. I came in the next day to find out that some had stayed and gone over to the site to help, and came back in tome to shower and change for their shift with no sleep. The days and weeks seemed to go by in a fog of 13 to 16 hour days and for the first 2 to 3 weeks with not a day off. I am sorry to say that I was not one of those who went down to help out and for a long time felt ashamed and guilty that I did not ...... to this very day whenever I think about that day those feelings still return.....Thank you for reading this.

*** just a side note, after I arrived home it came to me that had I been given permission to go to the site the last time I requested to go the train I would have taken would have been more then likely buried with me on board when the towers collapsed .... it was a very nerve shattering relization.

Till next time be well and enjoy life A/all.

The Gargoyle

rm_jacina_n 44F
91 posts
9/7/2006 11:58 am

This one remebers being sat in from of the TV watching something when the news flash came on.... girl remembers being glued to the news hoping it was a mistake and girl remembers frantically trying to get into AdultFriendFinder to check on her friends hoping and praying they were alright. This one is english and on the other side of the world Sir...girl can only imagine what it was like for You in the same City.


rm_goldencurls1 59F
34 posts
9/7/2006 12:30 pm

Guy, Thank you for a beautifully written blog. My nephew was visiting and working in NYC on 9/11, I had no idea where he was when the terrorists struck, and of course all lines outside of the US were immediately broken. I watched the BBC, the most reliable in the world for news, and saw all that happened, yes i know i was not there, but part of my family that i love was. Eventually after, 4 days i found out he was alive and well and had, thank the good lord, overslept that morning, and did not make work.....shrugs...that's life. I wanted to help, i couldn't, i physically could not get to the great US of A. And when it happened to us on 7/7, i know how they felt too.

The feelings will return, always, they are part of us, and part of life that has been lived through, but they will fade, and we will come to terms...we all do in time.

Thank you for writing this.

Your friend

ButteryDelight 59F

9/7/2006 12:57 pm

But, DID help. You stayed at your post and calmly explained to panic ridden people where to go and what to do. You kept them calm and did your job. i say hurrah for you.

Buttery Delight

Medusa231968 49F
301 posts
9/7/2006 1:44 pm

Blue, i said I wouldn't comment here because of things being slammed at me elsewhere but I am thinking no one will slam me for commenting on this.

When the planes hit, I was sitting at my desk in our living room, in Okinawa,Japan. One of my online friends on AOL, told me to turn on CNN, and I ran to get husband after seeing the first plane hit. We sat in shock for hours, watching the news and remaining in shock. Then came the news of the Pentagon, my husband being a Marine naturally took it harder,he has respect for that building as most do.

No one went to work, we all stayed home and watched the news. No one could function that day, we went about life like normal as much as we could. Children were kept home from school, parents didn't work.


Tinkerbell0217 46F
2 posts
9/7/2006 10:39 pm

~girl got the call that morning just after the second tower was hit ---- she watched the tragedy unfold in utter shock ----- she is so sorry for those that were there ---- the numbing view across New York Harbor is a constant reminder of how religion and politics can cause the once sane to turn to insanity for their ideals

she will never forget why this happened ---- but she will hope that our governments will ensure that it never happens again.

Muley_ae 107M/107F
1 post
9/7/2006 10:43 pm

BIG. Take this and assign whatever merit you care to: it's quite possibly a good thing you didn't work recovery.
I was in the Marianas when KAL 801 (Korean airlines Boeing 747-300) slammed into Sasa valley and disintigrated along a 3 mile long valley floor covered in 10 tropical saw grass. I worked that one. We knew before the sun was up we were no longer looking for survivors. 5 days I spent in the subtropical heat and humidity on steep slopes there digging amongst that wreckage and in the mud .. I'll spare you the description .. suffice it say I was a vegetarian for the better part of 6 months.
When I saw the Towers come down I drove over to FCFD Station 8 and signed up (I'm a FF/EMT/Rescue geek myself) to relieve anyone who wanted to go up and help out.


HoofsSlugsEmail 52F

9/7/2006 10:44 pm

On 9/11 I was working at the VA hospital in Washington DC. I was walking down the hospital aisle and there were all these people gathered around the patient tv room. I stopped and saw the second airplane hit the tower. I called my boss, and told her .. she didn't beleive me. She was from NY. Next thing we knew someone said the pentagon was hit too. We could see the smoke from the parking lot. My boss finally got a hold of her daughter. Her daughter was driving down parkway - just by the pentagon - she saw the plane over head, heard the horrendous noise. Cars stopped dead, and turned around heading the wrong way down the one way parkway. They thought it was a nuclear bomb. I didn't know where my husband was working that day since he does jobs all across the VA/DC/MD area - the cell phones weren't working. And there was nothing any of us could do. No one could leave the hospital and we didn't know if we were going to take casualities. We thougth we were under a full scale attack as news people were satying there were explosions on the mall and at the treasury building.
My husband was fine. he was working in maryland that day. But the wierdiest thing was.. instead of coming to our home he went to his parent's house. Somehow I still feel betrayed that he didn't come home to me but went there instead.

rm_Melciber 62M
214 posts
9/9/2006 3:14 pm

BIG . . . I understand how that feeling of guilt can be generated under the circumstances. Believe me that you were needed desperately where you were - and your superior,s call was as it should have been. Survivors often wonder how the mayhem missed them while hitting others.

More than with JFK . . . I will remember that day - where I was - what I did - what others said - the wait to hear from family and friends. And the stunned days that followed.

The world changed that day. We changed with it.

Thank you for telling us about that shattering time BIG, and reminding us again of ordinary lives in extraordinary times.

*** On a side note:
- I was at IKEA in Sevilla when 7/7 happened.
I had to leave 4 hours of shopping behind.
The banks in the UK had decided to pull their internet plugs out
. . . no transactions for the day.
. . . added to that, the hour-and-a-half drive back home just seemed a minor inconveniance in the face of this insanity.

A girl I have known since she was 8 had her eye blown out in Madrid. She is the sweetest thing.
She was going to study at her University that morning 11/3/04.
She is determined to go back and start over.
Her parents have bearly recovered from the shock - they have gone frail.

swt_tx64 53F

9/10/2006 8:55 am

~Blue...You did what had to be done for all of NYC was affected and You where needed where You where...and i may be a lil selfish but i am glad YOu where not there for i may have had a void that Your friendship fills and for that i am thankful~*swt*

pearlnecklace22 54F
41 posts
9/12/2006 2:48 am

Dear Blue sir I watched it on TV here in Australia thinking it was a horror movie then realize it was true. I lost 2 friends of mine in 9/11 as there were 11 Australians died and 2 of them were my friends I cried and couldn't eat, or sleep in 3 days I just cried and cried.
Its must even been worse for you and my heart goes out for you sir sorry that I couldn't type this before as it upsets me alot. But I have lit a candle in rememberence of those who died as it was such as waste. Please Blue sir forgive me that I haven't written sooner. I am going through a very hard time atm myself. You sound a very nice guy and by the way a very touching and moving and very good blog Blue sir

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