Hell and damnation who turned on my sex drive!  

Becca53913 58F
151 posts
5/23/2006 11:04 pm

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6/9/2006 8:49 pm

Hell and damnation who turned on my sex drive!

I do not have a clue who turned on my sex drive but you did me no favors! LOL seems spring is in the air...... I went nine years thinking of it occasionally and then bam ......that is all I can think of.

I had a dream last night that I was getting married to two men. They were in separate towns. I thought the one I loved was gone and then fell in love with another and then they were both there. What a dilemma.

I guess I will have to take many cold showers till I get this out of my system. I hate casual sex as I don't say what I want till I trust and know someone and I have to love that person. not looking right now so that leaves me where......frustrated! I guess I need to pray for a husband or I may be sining all over the place. LOL Then I would be on a huge guilt trip. Guess I am sining already with all the fantasies I have been having. Dang gotta catch who ever flipped the old switch!

Becca53913 58F
131 posts
5/24/2006 9:06 am

Mizhuny, Hey girl how ya doing? You sure have a lot of people that read your site! You go girl.

Don't those dreams kill ya. I always wake up at the good parts. LOL But in the dream the guy was so loving, so strong and caring. Wish I could meet one like that in real life! Do you see them in your dreams? I do. He was not hot...hot but sexy, with longer hair and the nice trail of belly hair leading to the good places LOL just what I could go for. Hell I am a big women and I think that gets in my way. Guys don't like it and neither do I! Wish I could find the clue to weight loss! Hope God sends me someone special quick before my sexual peak leaves!

I have been divorced for a long time and it has also been a long time since I trusted anyone enough to have intimantcy. It is a part of your inner soul and people can take advantage of it. Once you make love to someone it changes everything and there is no going back. The changes in the relationship can be good or bad just depends.

I miss having sex. I dream of having sex. Who turned on the switch just recently I don't know but it is sure frustrating.

I love sex , there I said it, actually it is one of Gods greatest gifts!

I love the feelings in my body as it builds towards orgasm,trying to ride the wave to completion without drawing back because it is so damn good! I miss the laughing, the games, the oneness of joining souls. Sweet kisses along my neck and holding each other afterwards. I laugh a lot too. It doesn't have to be all seriousness. I am kinda shy on the outside but let me go with the one I love and trust and the tiger in me comes out. Must be because I am a Leo. August birthday!

I like to role play. My husband use to tell me his fantasies and we would play them out and mine too of cource. I liked to tie him up! One time I used speaker wire for the lack of anything else around. We laughed about that one for a long time. Speaker wire anyone? I also love giving oral sex. I really, really miss that a lot. I miss the feel of him in my mouth and flicking my tongue over the ridge of his head. Hearing his moans and feeling his body tense and jerk. OK gotta stop thinking on that one.

I use to play this game where they could not move when I was giving oral. If they moved I stopped. Boy that was hard for them but added to his pleasure. LOL Guys love getting oral and I love giving it and getting it also.

So what has turned you on the most with one of your friends? Do ya play roles and stuff? Anything I might have missed trying along the way with my hubby or my longterm relationships? Wish I was a one night stand girl at this point. Meet someone in the dark....never see their face....just have great sex and always wonder who they were. Now that would be new! Ok my mind is going to the gutter gotta go work on my biz anyways.

Talk to ya later

HeardLankaMalls 56M
2925 posts
5/26/2006 6:56 am

It's ok to be sexual Becca, and to enjoy the fantasies and dreams.
The frustration is the worst part

Until someone comes along to fulfill your life and love, there's always self gratification (although that does get old after awhile).

Hugs, C

UrFuckBud 62M
328 posts
6/6/2006 12:46 pm

That's a fantasy to live out. anonymous sex.
Start a conversation with someone with the rules of no names, see if it develops. Switch to the phone and on the first meeting, it won't exactly be one night sex (or maybe it will)


Becca53913 58F
131 posts
6/9/2006 8:47 pm

Hey everyone thanks for all the imput and the honesty. I know that it does come straight form your hearts.

Hawk what you say has some truths to it. I am really trying to be true to God but one sin is no greater then another except to deny him. I am weak in so many areas. This was one area I use to be so strong in. Now I think I really was not so strong but the screwed up hormone system I have LOL. So much for being strong. I guess I will know when I know what to do. For now Cold showers !!!

Urfuckbud I don't think I could go that direction. What works for one may not for all but I do enjoy all the good imput from you and all my friends. Friends are what makes each day more bearable. Sorry I have not been on site for a long time. Trying to build my on line site.
Miss you all

Becca53913 58F
131 posts
6/9/2006 8:49 pm

Cor you got it right darling. So sad with no arms aholding me. Maybe when I am happy with me someone else will be also! LOL Missed ya

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