Domme Drop  

BeachMystress 49F
15 posts
8/7/2006 3:01 am
Domme Drop

Original Post date - Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Well, I had a wonderful time playing this weekend. I spent time with a sub who not only is great in the submissive realm, but it is worth having a real conversation with him. I really enjoyed myself. Now comes the Domme Drop. *sighs* I have it after almost every time playing, but it is often mild enough to be ignored.

For anyone who doesn't know what Dom/me Drop (aka Top Drop) is, it is the same type of thing as subdrop. Now you want to know what subdrop is.. right? They are all the result of the body having an excess of endorphins that are released during BDSM play. When these endorphins work their way out of the system, the result is often a period of feeling low or depressed. It sometimes manifests as being angry, needy or questioning why you'd ever be involved with something like BDSM.

Tonight it is being especially bothersome and I'm not sure why. What I do know is that I've closed out most ways people can contact me unless they are someone close enough to me to have my phone number. I tend to be emotional during TopDrop and do not need to make others deal with me being snuffly or worse, bitchy. *smiles* I guess it is part of the whole power dynamic thing. When I am truly needy, it is hard to get me to accept help. I'm the one who is in control and strong. I'm the one who is supposed to be capable and able to deal with whatever comes up. I'd chastise a friend who didn't ask for help when they needed it, but yet I do the same thing.

Anyways, I'm going to go and pamper myself. It always helps to "be nice" to myself when I experience Drop. I think tonight that is going to mean pulling out one of the favorite DvDs (Some like it Hot) and curling up under a snuggly blanket with the kitty.

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