Isn't it ironic..........dontcha think??  

BabyfaceLouie 56M
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9/7/2006 2:38 pm

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9/8/2006 10:32 am

Isn't it ironic..........dontcha think??

My mood is low at the moment. Quite low. OK, very low. I feel flat and emotional. I've been OK at work because I have to be, but my mood has been falling over time, probably for the past week or so. I feel in pain today. I cried before work for an hour, and after work for 4 hours. My heads a shed, but I know I'll bounce back.

But I realised one thing from having a blog. My mood swings are following a pattern of sorts. They seem to be on a monthly rotation. I can recognise that around this time of the month I am low. In two weeks time I'll be overactive, have a massive libido and have hot plastic in my wallet. Fortunately, my down periods outweigh the elated ones, otherwise I'd end up in deep shit.

The other thing I've realised is that they are getting worse, or at least more intense subjectively. This worries me a bit.

Now the irony is that here I am, cyclothymia worsening, and what do I do for a living? Yep, thats right. I'm a clinical specialist in a mental health service.

I was going to post a "what's the bloody point?" short rant, but decided to utilise my blog more constructively.

But I still don't know what the bloody point is.................

try_ME45 58F

9/8/2006 8:21 am

There is always a point. Might not be glaringly obvious - but there will be one. x

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