How I fucked Britannia and other private ejaculations.........  

BabyfaceLouie 56M
98 posts
7/4/2006 10:18 am

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7/31/2006 12:19 am

How I fucked Britannia and other private ejaculations.........

Why is it that just when you think you are getting some elements of your life sorted out, something crawls out of the primordial sludge of your mind/emotions and hoofs you clean in the nuts?

Inner demons fighting back methinks.

Basic premise - the world was created when I was born/created and the world will end when I die. Why? Because only I experience my world and so I am at it's centre - my world revolves around me. My universe will collapse in on itself and die when I do.

Don't worry!! You'll all be safe in your own universes.

Right, so consequently my life is influenced by a variety of influences including my inner demons because they're part of me.

Ok. Premise 2 - I can see into peoples souls. Not all the time, but its what makes me do the job that I do. I can 'see' pain and emotion, 'see' the fractures in their souls, 'read' their fears and anxieties. Not all the time, cos that would drive me insane. But often.........

This makes me 'A SCARY MAN'. This makes me difficult to have a relationship with. This is part of what makes me 'a devil'.

This is what scared my horny little devil away. She still really likes me; I can see it every day. Its written clean through her like Blackpool rock. But this level of intimacy scared the shit out of her and the barriers are up and at full tilt. I miss her.

15-love to the inner demons.

I shocked my current girlfriend by 'seeing into her soul' and scared the shit out of her. She nearly dumped me. But I now also know that she can see into mine. Part of her scares me, and that takes some doing. She's part devil too.


My ex-ex decided to spring a surprise visit on me last weekend and stayed the whole weekend. My girlfriend was NOT impressed. And I was a bastard to my ex. But my ex-ex is a Seraph, and aren't devils and angels supposed to fight?


But I've pulled round the last two issues. I've talked openly and honestly and resolved issues that needed resolving. Theres a devil-seraph truce at the moment.


I'm sorting out my emotional responses to my family and about my childhood, and addressing my personal fears about being a parent.


I feel calmer and more in control over my life.


Almost a tiebreaker...............New balls? No, not yet.

Stay tuned for more inane ramblings from The Light Bringer!

rm_turtleBurp 45F
1273 posts
7/4/2006 1:46 pm

I like people who can see into souls cos i always think they're gonna be able to tell me stuff i don't know about myself... they never do tho... apparently i'm pretty basic.

Deuce is a cool place to be tho babe... defo better than 40-love anyway.

RubyRedPetal 46F

7/4/2006 2:32 pm

aw deuce just makes me think of deuce bigalow and thats cool![/SIZE]

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try_ME45 59F

7/6/2006 9:58 am

And what if you meet someone whose soul is closed to you? Does that mean they have none or that you just can't read it?

BabyfaceLouie 56M

7/6/2006 1:00 pm

    Quoting try_ME45:
    And what if you meet someone whose soul is closed to you? Does that mean they have none or that you just can't read it?
Just can't see it. Can't turn it on or off either. I'm usually the best at it when my personal crap subsides, so I can then see daylight.

Usually happens as "a moment of enlightenment"; intuitive understanding.

Fritz Perls would have described it as a 'gestalt moment'.

Its also possible that I'm just very intuitive and can read body language extremely well. Prefer my explanation tbh.

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