Dazed and Confused  

BBSOUTHERNGURL 46F
52 posts
1/13/2006 12:05 pm

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7/14/2006 8:57 am

Dazed and Confused

ok heres my story!! Its January 13, 2006 and I just need to do some venting... I have started the new year off with bang...being totally depressed and sad... MEN....they are such ass holes... I don't need a man I just want one..there is a difference... I thought that I had been blessed on Dec 17th when I met this guy...who took my phone number from a friend and called me up and we started to chat...he was so funny ,made me laugh and was absolutely all about me... We went on our first date Dec 17 I had the time of my life...of course I questioned this all night...was this real, everything that I had ever hoped for dreamed of was taken place before my eyes...well one thing lead to another and he stayed that night at my house..OMG...that should explain it all...I have never in my life experienced such a feeling as I did that night and oh how evident it was that he was feeling the same..well we ran with it....both trying to recheck our selves to make sure what was happening was real.... For a a little over a week I could not get ride of him...not that I wanted to.....i received phone calls all day telling me he missed me, wake up calls in the morning...makeing me wake with a Smile on my face and bounceing off the wall all day...He went as far as to telling me...to relax...don't worry about anything...let me make you happy...Im going to take all your worrys away...He Just stepped right up into my life and wanted to be a part of every bit of it...I am at a point in my life that I have been single for a while and I am so ready to find what I thought was there in front of me.... I like to go out to the clubs and party with friends...only because I have nothing better to do..I was willing to give it all up...I did for a short time..I even quit smokeing cause he is not a smoker...ok heres the kicker....New Years weekend... he decides that he wants to be alone for new years...even though I was willing to just sit at home and spend it with him...was mean to me all weekend... and it has headed down hill from there...I am angry and confused as to why someone can step in your life and fill it love, laughter, passion and then all of sudden say...hey the person I was 2 weeks ago all the romance and passion....oh that really wasn't me...heres the real me...Im mean...He has apparently done nothing but lie to me...... he stop calling me like he did...no wake up calls... then proceeds to tell me that....I was the best he ever had...that he has never been treated as such ever in his life and said that I scared him....told me that he really was a mean person ...... I have not seen him in over a week...shit ass why would I want to... then he calls me January 10 and tells me the ole famous line....asked me was I tired that I have been running through his mind all day....asked me did I miss him as much as he missed me....ME being stupid wanting to just forget the roller coaster ride he just shook my life up with...asked him was he going to come spend some time with me this weekend...you wanna know what his response was..." oh I don't know not sure What I might do after work who knows... we'll see" ....reality slapped me right in my face again... How could you call me and tell me that you miss me so much and then when asked if you want to see me and you say you don't know...I am so angry right now... I could explode on anyone....How could a man play with someone emotions like that... I could have handled it alot better if it had just been a one night stand....but to step into my life and do everything possible to sweep me off my feet...seeing what it was doing to me was so obvious you could see it in my eyes and then drop me flat on my face????????????????????? Happy New Year to me!!!! I have such a bad outlook on a man right now.... that it makes me understand now why some women convert to being lesbians...

Well you can believe that this PUSSY is now armed and Dangerous!!!!


SeaMist1966 51F

3/3/2006 5:30 am

ROLFLMAO!!!!Armed and Dangerous?...DAMN GINA!!....Gurl now you know ive been with ya thru most of this shit....and ur to nice of a woman to be played by a man who wants wat he wants...when he wants it..NOT....thats the way of the woman not man...I know the nite you were at my house and he was ringing ya cell....you wanted to answer it...but im proud ya didnt...Men will play with a womans emotions juss like women will play with mens emotions...hell look at the damn rollercoaster I was on for 5 yrs with Trackk Dogg...(omg was I a idot)it takes a while to realize the way of a man...Im not hacking men here cuz I know theres far more good men in this world than bad ones...the good ones are either married or Gay!...hahahaha juss kidding gurl.....Ive had my moments with men and ive fell in love myself...wat to dew wat to dew?..ima sit back...relax...and make sure I have lots and lots of batteries for my toys..Its Friday..wat ya dewing tonite?...wanna have a date with SeaMist?...My kids are gone for the weekend,and ill be all alone here..with Jones ofcourse but you know ill be here if ya need a friend..Dont let setbacks with men like that mess you up...ur one of the strongest women I know...Single mother of a handful (POPCORN)..LOL...dewing ur thang,ur a surivor,and I admire you Stace..always know im here...We all want to be loved by that special man...But love takes time...Lust is a spur of the moment feeling that can last from one nite to months...and even yrs...but love is something special and those feelings arent like the bedroom light that can be turned on and off with the flip of a switch...Maybe hes scared...maybe hes got alot of feelings inside him that he has to deal with before he can decide wat the difference in LOVE and LUST are...I know you gurl...like me you have that certin quailty that men cant deny...you raidiate beauty,strenght,class,humor,power,and all out DIVA STATUS!!..so hold ur head high as you always have and know theres alot of ppl in ur life that love you...and know you can dew wat ever you put ur mind to...Take this advice my gurl....put ur mind to a bottle of Jager...some RedBull...and ur ole friend Chrissy....lets have some shots and maybe even a cry....LOL...juss kidding...you know we laugh more than anything when we hanging...lifes comes with no guarentees...the only thing it comes with is the reality that it dont last forever...so make the best of wat time we have...and always know today is the first day of the rest of ur life...damn now Im feeling like blogging about all my friends....maybe I will...have a good day ditting in that office of urs with the BIG windows...LOVE YA GURL


BBSOUTHERNGURL 46F
62 posts
3/4/2006 6:24 pm

Hey there HOOKER!!! Thank you Gurl!! for everything you know very seldom in life do you ever find a true friend.. one that no matter what!! will be by your side FOREVER!!...One that never judges you, never looks down on you, never second guesses you, one that always trust you, one that always as your back no matter if you believe in the situation or not..and One that never takes advantage of you and accepts you and even all your flaws........you have seen me at some of my lowest points in life and have stood right by me and give me anything you could.....you are one of those friends to me!! even though it may be weeks or days before we talk...I always think about you Gurl!! Our relationship is what TRUE FRIENDS are made of...and I can honestly say that...no what Gurl....You now you can call on this sister to help you get through it...You know when you need to kick my ASS back into reality.....I LOVE YA!!! Thanks for everything Chrissy


SeaMist1966 51F

3/16/2006 6:55 am

Dido Gina!!


rm_Paulie978 39M
1 post
4/6/2006 4:13 pm

Fuck him he wasn't a real man anyway


gone_fishing60 58M

5/4/2006 7:55 pm

Whats with that?Men are assholes sometimes I'll admit it.


BBSOUTHERNGURL 46F
62 posts
5/5/2006 11:35 am

your right about that..thanks


BBSOUTHERNGURL 46F
62 posts
5/5/2006 11:40 am

    Quoting gone_fishing60:
    Whats with that?Men are assholes sometimes I'll admit it.
yeah they are...I still can't figure it out...how a person could just lie or do things to you that they is effecting you majorly...who knows but I learned a lesson with that one.... thanks for commiting


rm_hunter001956 61M
8 posts
7/13/2006 4:04 pm

I feel for you...Some boys just play with the toys and then they steal them and run away.

Sweetie write me anytime...I love the bootie..Wish you were here I'd git that bang back for you..Just remember...Guy's can do that. Not all of us are ASSholes.


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