New Outlook at Work  

AzCdKayle 62T
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3/1/2006 4:59 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

New Outlook at Work

Today I had to sit back and think, I have worked for the county here since 2000 in the Adult Probation as a dispatcher and now in DTEF. The first two years were really good, I loved the job, things started to happen when you walked into the comm. center the air was so thick you could cut it with a knife. Co-Workers were back stabbing each other putting there face into other peoples business and one night I exploded on 2nd shift, I knew that morning when I got home the next day was going to be hell and in fact I could have loss my position(fired), but I made a call to seek help, and let me tell you I am not one to admit that I have a problem. I was struggling with two personalities one male and one female.

Now that I knew I needed help and took the steps I was safe. But that was just the beginning. After some time of being good and things were looking up, the manager was replaced and things started going down the drain.

To make a long story short, the new manager didn't really like me or what I was and making my life like walking on a very thin string. It was taking a toll on me, my health and my fear of loosing my job.

Than I took a hot call from one of our PO's and no return response, we got a call from PD saying a PO was shot, than another call came in and we were told two PO's were shot, I lost it and was taken off the radio and the Crisis Emer. Team came to help me through it.

I came back to work after a week off and was ok, in fact after my second day I took another hot call and handle everything ok. But my heart wasn't into the job anymore, it was time to move on.

I was called in for a position that was offer to me. I took it because of the challenge and learning and the new director and supervisor were great, and I felt very comfortable with them during the interview.

It was the best move I have made in my life besides coming out.

PO's and SO's that knew me as a dispatcher and have met me now have told me what a different person I am and that they can't belief it was me on the radio back than.

One PO who I use to quickly hang up on told me today it's been six months and you are always so happy and cheerful every single day, you must have a bad day every now and than don't you? I told her no, this is me I have never been this happy, I went from a place of hell to heaven, I love getting up in the morning and going to work. This is the real me.

I still get emails from former co-workers asking me am I still happy? Do I like my new job? Do I like being where I am at and I say oh yeah, I love it here. Life is wonderful now.

I have no stress and my health has greatly improved. I have a total new outlook in life and at work and as one director told me the other day it is so good to see the real me, smiling and happy with a positive mind and out look.

I also like to take this time to thank everyone that has read any of my blogs and to wish them a wonderful day and week.

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