Have you ever..........  

9Inches917 40M
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8/21/2005 2:05 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Have you ever..........

Found yourself in a real dark place, and looking around wondering WTF you can do to regain your balance?

Wondered if where you are is where you are supposed to be, and found all the signs point to the answer of that question being "no"?

But then, you ignore those signs? You keep on plugging along wondering if and when things might come to change, as if someone else is supposed to fix it?

Have you spent time preparing for some esoteric event, and wondered if you were really ready when that event occurred?

Have you ever felt as though there wasn't anyone out there that you'd feel a click with again, so you cling to the hollow husk of what your current relationship has become?

Then one day you stand up. You plant your feet firm and say "That is enough" ?

And when you do, not much time goes by before you start to feel your spirit returning. Again, the challenges of the day bring a smile to your face because you have something to look forward to again. Something good.

This person knows who they are. They know where they are going and what they want from life. They speak to you with the voice of an angel and their voice alone makes you forget that you just climbed back from the seventh circle of hell.

You've been so drained for so long, you've felt as though you've really got nothing left to give anyone, then suddenly you discover a voice and a mind that is so fascinating to you that you want to know all there is to know about that person.

You can dance down the line all you want, there comes a point where you need to take a step in one direction or another. And that first step is the hardest one. It's difficult to take the training wheels off your bike, unless you realize that you haven't been using them for quite some time anyway. That confidence is like some divine presence breathing strength into your core.

The kindness of a complete stranger, one you might have already drawn conclusions about- that's an amazing thing right there. Especially when you find that this person has the most amazing mind and outlook, one so similar to your own that you wonder why in the blue hell you didn't meet this person sooner.

Then you remember that timing is everything, and you sit back. You smile because there's no hurry. And walking slowly down the road gets you there, but you get to enjoy the view along the way. And you are so happy..........


8/21/2005 4:26 pm

Thanks...your insights were very thought-provoking. I would think most of us have experienced or felt at least one of these situations at some point in our lives. Putting it into words, however, is a gift and you have done so most beatifully. Thanks for sharing; I have found that writing out my thoughts has provided me with a clarity and peace of mind that is unparalleled in any other form.

hottamaletoo 60F
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8/21/2005 9:51 pm

Your are writing from the Heart...
That in itself is something most people find difficult to do.
I'am in that moment in time where I'am pondering a relationship.
I know that my truth will come back to me once this person can learn to get along with out me. Some trees stand tall, others need a lift.
Sometimes that lift can wear you down and make your "Branches" fall.
The test is picking them up again and not being afraid to show their beauty.

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