alone, that empty feeling.  

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3/24/2006 2:42 am

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3/25/2006 8:16 pm

alone, that empty feeling.

My first Friday night alone, damn this is tougher than I thought it would be. You just can’t prepare yourself for ending a relationship that has lasted over 8 years. It isn’t something you just move on from. Work has kept me somewhat sane this week as we’ve had a large number of projects collide and well it’s meant a huge amount of work.

Little Miss Grey Eyes is so sweet, she talks to me whenever I need support, she has really opened her heart to me to help me survive this ordeal. Hopefully I will never have to provide her with the level of support she’s giving me, if she ever needs it I'll be there.

I was really down when I got home. I had been on the go since 7am, hadn’t had time to eat, first time I stopped during the day was 4pm. The day finally wrapped around 7:30pm. I think I upset Grey Eye’s, I sent her an sms telling her I was feeling crap and lonely. She immediately offered to talk but I just wanted to sit here on my own for a little bit and survey the wreckage I’ve left behind. I hope she understands! The sms reply from me was something too short I think all I said was I wanted to be alone ‒ I probably should have said more. I should know better than to be abrupt on text messages.

I feel like I'm rambling, no coherence to what I'm saying tonight. I wonder if this will make sense in the morning?

p.s. the flowers are for Grey Eyes, my special friend.

sassybelle21 33F  
13313 posts
3/24/2006 6:59 am

If you have such a great friend in Lil Missy Grey Eyes, I hope you'd cherish her and appreciate whatever she's doing for you. It's good to have someone who's always there for you. I'm saying this because I'm the kind of person who's always there for others but when I actually need someone to lend me a ear or shoulder, I can hardly find anybody since they are too wrapped up with their lives and I just don't want to feel like a bother. Blogging does let me vent and rant all that I want and need. And I'm thankful for my alternative.

p/s: Those deep pink roses are very pretty I love those.

frangipanigal 46F
10406 posts
3/25/2006 1:47 am

I thought I was the only one that is allowed to stuff things up with text messages??!! Ah wait, I can do it with emails too **look mum, no hands!!**

I am sure she does understand. It's going to be hard and it will get easier.

Now where are your six things from me tagging you then??


rm_Lance_Elliot 48M

3/25/2006 1:55 pm

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Snagged by the real one

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