Fight of the Beast  

4biddenlove4us 50F
262 posts
5/20/2006 9:48 pm

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6/24/2006 12:33 am

Fight of the Beast

I sit with my doctor in fear of what he'll say,
I don't know what to expect, especially today.
The fear grew so strong, I wanted to run
I can't face the thought of telling anyone.
The feeling of emptiness fluttered my soul,
knowing the beast has taken control.
It invaded my life with not the slightest remorse,
and dragged me through a heartless course.
The darkness grew, though the sun shone bright,
fighting back the tears with all my might.
You have a lot of fighting in the months ahead,
were the words I had circling inside my head.
Surgeries and chemo were the worse of my fears,
all that was said I couldn't control my tears.
Looking in the mirror, the reflection I'd see,
is that of the beast staring back at me.
The loss of my hair, my dignity and pride,
were all from the beast hiding inside.
My eyes so empty and hollow were they,
wishing this nightmare would just go away.
The needles and nausea, just wanting to die,
are the words in my heart, I knew were a lie.
Days would come and weeks would go,
courage and strength had started to show.
You took over my life with total control,
but what you can't have is my fighting soul.
I fought you now and I'll fight you again.
cause I know from experience you'll be beat in the end.
That horrible beast came to me with no answers,
For that beast I feared was...cancer.

GB_Cple 67M/56F  
3113 posts
5/21/2006 4:31 am

good luck , and our best wishes ,

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/23/2006 8:28 am:
Thank you and I'm sorry for taking so long to respond. I've had alot on my plate of recent but things seem to be looking up and fingers crossed I might beat the beast!

GoddessOfTheDawn 106F
11240 posts
5/21/2006 5:26 am

~ echoez GB'z wishez ~

gud post....

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/23/2006 8:29 am:
Thank you for reading and always saying something to make me feel good. Love you!! It means more to me than you will ever know~ smiles ~

StatuSedgyHairy 60M
158 posts
5/22/2006 3:40 pm

No matter what you may Think I am always your friend for life....huggss ladsy.....

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/23/2006 8:31 am:
I don't think, maybe thats why I always end up in hot water but I do know you care and you know I do too just don't show it like I should. I'm sorry!

fridayyyyyy 49M

5/25/2006 12:41 am

i 'll try to send u all of my positive energy in order to fight this mother fucker beast...
b strong baby
we love u

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/23/2006 8:33 am:
Thank you for your good wishes, it means alot to me!

ThaRealLiv 44M

6/3/2006 4:51 am

Remember that when you find tha direction of your soul, it is a gift to you to choose where you take it. We all suffer physical pain, but the fight of cancer is one of tha soul- To keep tha goodness in your heart always, through any circumstances. And look always to tha future with hope, and strength, without fear, and carry your soul where your heart desires.

ThaRealLiv 44M

6/3/2006 4:54 am

We will all be there with you soon enough. The beast is not the pain of tha body, but tha pain of tha soul. To love all souls is sometimes painful, but tha greatest direction of all.

4biddenlove4us replies on 6/23/2006 8:34 am:
With God's Will, lets hope we all looking in the same direction!! and thanks for you posts. Love xxx

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