trying to figure out what everything means  

1niceguy2try 36T
217 posts
2/5/2006 6:16 am

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trying to figure out what everything means


There is no doubt in my mind that the last couple days have been the most socially stimulated I’ve had in a long time. My head is racing with thoughts. some are happy thoughts, others are mournful, others are full of ego but as usually those are the most hopeful, and then there is this confused wtf just happened type feeling I get in-between it all...

You see a lot of this got started yesterday morning when my day was pretty much all day going to be about getting ready to set up my DJ rig to play a set out at a local art/street festival that happens every month in town. I squeezed all my equipment into my lil 2 sweater pop-top del sol (barely) constantly refusing to let stage freight get to me since not only have i played for some huge crowds, but I’ve played under much worse conditions (such as, blow their sox off or don’t get the gig) ** giggles ** so the fact that my car wasn’t big enough wasn’t why i wanted to stay home and i knew it and just pushed through it like i always do with cold feet...

so i get to the event and park my car in what seems to be an ok location to set up shop to play my set, about a half hour after i get there a van pulls up across the street and they set up a rig too but they have a real pa so i knew there was going to be audio issues right away. now I’m not sure if they were being nice by not turning it up at first, or if they were being mean by drowning me out later but i had the opportunity to get a couple hours of time where the passers-by could hear my stuff and i got the feedback i needed to know i haven’t lost my talent as a dj, and find out i am more impressive as a turntablist then i realized.

so after the guy drowns me out i continue to hook up with a group of bboys and another dj who borrow my generator and so I’ve networked and stuff on top of getting a chance to refresh my confidence as an artist... i went home very satisfied about the experience and so I’m totally hyped about the fact that for the first time in a while i got hope for my music career...

But tonight when i was getting ready to set everything up and post on various blogs and boards about my success i pull up a fellow-local artist’s myspace page and find out one of the 2 artists got shot! According to the 911 calls he was busting up his girlfriends stuff and hitting her or something so she called in on him. Then he ended up killing a cop and so they killed him back...

Homie was my towns hope for local music, because him and his partner were on the rize and were getting record sales and stuff...

My first reaction was thinking he did it for the hip-hop power, kind of like the suicide bomber thing... but later when i read about it being a domestic violence call i wonder...

Right now? hell I just wish i had the money and the determination to actually get the fuck out of Vegas. If not for the fact that the local music scene is generally unbuildable then simply because our cops have a bad enough of a reputation that I worry it was something the cops did… (If they acted improper or not it's the idea that it's a burning possibility in my mind that bothers me)

i know this has nothing to do with AdultFriendFinder, but i logged in here trying to distract myself but havent been able to so perhaps ill just get my thoughts off my chest for now

rm_jackie40503 71T
1323 posts
2/20/2006 5:49 pm

Doll believe me I’ve found this a great way to vent all the things I would never get out anyother way if that makes sense. When I’m pissed, when I’m really feeling down, when I’ve been hurt, I just log on, write a piece about it and begin to feel just a little better. So say what you want, what you feel, a lot of us have been there at one time or another and understand.

Hugs,
Jackie


1niceguy2try 36T
167 posts
2/21/2006 10:29 pm

you have said such nice things on my blog thanx hun (((huggs))) i am glad i found ya that night... it's nice to have found a new friend


rm_jackie40503 71T
1323 posts
2/22/2006 2:01 am

Hey us gals got to stick together, at least we understand the things we have to put up with from others. Makes it a lot easier to talk since we don’t have to worry that the other is thinking, ‘heres one sick dude’. -giggling- now don’t get me started.....

Hugs,
Jackie


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