a (fictional) letter from a woman named mandy:  

1niceTgirl2try 36T
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2/20/2006 7:24 am

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a (fictional) letter from a woman named mandy:


let me clearify an extra time, since im sure my last few post have not lead people who dont know me to believe me to be very stable right now....
a (fictional) letter from a woman named mandy: this means i want to express some drama through a fake story! not from my point of view but from an imaginary one...

number one... i can tell you your state may be great at something but my state is number one... not in education standards... not in health care... but in our suicide rate... I am proud of that number... and now... it seems i can help that statistic as well as improve on the quality of art in my community... you see latley nevada has finaly emerged as a possible up and coming music hot-spot.. of corse this could not happen when i was still a teen with nothing more to keep me living but my small but close friends whom i could discuss death with until it seemed to surreal to aproach no... they waited! they waited until i would be old and wrinkled... now i sit here at 32, much to old to be the next pop diva... my face is scarred from scabs that came with obcessive picking at my pores while addicted to drugs... when my friends faded away so did my ability to maintain reality so i had to escape... it was really all my friends fault... and even though i could have really been a wonderful singer whom the nation would have adored just as they do brittney they let me down, my state let me down... but still at least i can do one last thing for my city, my community, my art... i can write a song, record it, and then send it off to a record company.... let the world know why i did it... yes the enclosed cd is a recording of my final letter to the world... this is my suicide note...

ive written down the lyrics for you here...

I try so hard to life so you
and in the end no matter what you do
please dont forget everything that weve been through
and just know this time what i say is true...

i will give my life
for a city of sin
if it helps begin
tragedy is nice

you never seemed to overlook
slot machines, or the sports book
tables that spin balls long poles with hooks
your money oh honey that's what they took

i will give my life
for a city of sin
if it helps begin
tragedy is nice

rappers who tried been
shot then they died
i never got fried
no acid in this town i tried

i will give my life
for a city of sin
if it helps begin
tragedy is nice
...
i will give my life
for a city of sin
if it helps begin
tragedy is nice
.....


sadly, the letter never got to the record company, people still dont know why mandy killed herself and they never would have found out anyway because her song was as shallow as her perception of what it took to be famous....

rm_FreeLove999 48F
16127 posts
2/20/2006 11:17 am

i don't think any of us really know what it takes to see our names in lights, cos passion sure doesn't seem enough ... hey, i'm 12 years older than you and still pushing forward in the hope of success with "art" (writing)... cos i would rather die trying than give up and never know!

>>>hugz<<<



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1niceTgirl2try 36T
167 posts
2/21/2006 10:14 pm

yeah, but the truth for me is, i give up all the time... on what seems like a daily bassis... it adds to the drama in my music... i know what most of my problem is finaly though... i need someone who knows the other side... something ive not admitted to needing since i had first started... i need a manager or whatever... but i want them to put more into it... i want someone whom i can give credit to like they were a band member or something... prollem is, im scared of getting close to people like that... cause im scared of any relationship... gosh i have a sugar high right now! anyone else feel that? ** giggles and passses out ** sheesh soda is bad when yer caught on this illness

** passed out **

Kayla


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