Sucking cocks or eating pussy are both great for me. And “69ing” is the ultimate, that's real special and sweet to me. I’m real new to this and I'm just feeling my way around. I’m a real shy per and I can’t believe that I’m doing this (and certainly not to have said how much I like oral sex). As a result, you will not see any photos or videos of me (or at least not right away). Also there are additional reas for no photos: I live in a small rural town in South Carolina and I would be mortified if someone from home should see the photos and recognize me. I’d be so embarrassed! Actually I have a confession to make. My curfriend is actually my previous husband, who’s straight and lives in Aiken, SC (a town nearby). He is really stimulated visually by erotica (whether they are live subjects, or recorded images). He likes porno DVDs, magazines, photos, etc. When we are alone together, as part of foreplay, he would like for me to wear revealing under garments, such as transparent or crotch-less panties. He’s really turned on by the color black and would have me wear black thigh-high stockings, black garter belt, and spike high-heeled shoes (with no panties or bra). Unfortunately, I am reluctant to “dress-up” since I feel like I look like a . In addition to that, I feel like my mother is sitting there on the headboard of the bed and she certainly wouldn’t approve. My boyfriend would also like to take nude pictures of me including my posing in very revealing positions. And, he would like for me to take nude pictures of him as well. Not to mention making videos of our love-making. Well, I’m just not an exhibitionist (even in private) and would rather “do our thing” either in the dark or under the covers. The main rea that I’m trying to participate in this “Adult Friend Finders” experience is to maybe help me get over (or reduce) my shyness and reluctance. I really would like to please my boyfriend and be more receptive to his requests for some visual sex stimulus. Does anyone have any advice to offer that might help me adapt?