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Dreams are great!
Dreams are great!
I've been praying to god lately to give me a sex dream. Not just a sex dream that I forget about, or has some nasty cheesey syphilus nightmare chic, but something fun and sexy.. and clean! So last night, I had a dream that I was at a friend of mine's house that is sort of strict about who can come over and all since they have sort of a "background life" that they need to protect.
Anyhow I was in there cause my car was broken down, and who shows up but my ex-girlfriend from Washington state and a friend of hers. Let me tell you a little about my ex. The girl I saw before her was my best friend's sister. I was with her for 5 years, waiting until marriage until sex. Of course about halfway through the relationship she had no intention of marrying me, and didn't bother to tell me that, so she broke up with me and fucked a guy that I worked with that happened to hate my guts(strange huh?).
After she broke up with me I kind of fell apart, because she pretty much gave me one days notice. Two weeks later I met this shorter girl that (I didn't know it at the time) was a real needle junky. I had always wanted to try shooting drugs but never knew anyone that had done any. So eventually she turned me on to shooting up speed, and she wasn't totally wasted from speed yet, being 19(4 years younger than me hehe), and had a sweet sexy little body, was the first girl that I had that shaved(well, she was my 3rd) so it was pretty cool. She was quite a sex-fanatic, and I was quite ready for that after FIVE YEARS OF ABSTINANCE!!!!!!!!!
Ok, so eventually we both ended up being heroin junkies, because we would use heroin to come down from out speed-sex binges. I had always wanted to try heroin and "be a junkie" cause I had conquered all the other drugs, having 10 years of drug use under my belt at 23 yrs old.
So this girl(my now ex of a year ago) Started going out and fucking strangers who would get her high. Now this pissed me off something serious, but I was naive, stupid, way too caring to kick her ass out-- I was a chump. So I let her cheat with this guy a couple or few times without dumping her. It kinda sickened the fuck out of me but she gave good sex, and we were good together I spose.
After a year and a half of being on heroin with her, I decided I had to quit and I left washington to get back to Arizona, where I had come from and my parents and friends were. So my ex came after me to phoenix about 3-4 weeks later. She came to try to detox but she ended up getting me addicted to heroin again. She knew nothing about phoenix and ended up on Van Buren(which is basically the red light district of Phoenix) and she started letting guys pick her up, and she's give them head for money to get dope. I was like, WTF?? She got " " after she tried to give head to a nigger that just got out of jail, he wanted more than a blow job and took it from her. After that she went all out and fucked anything for money. At this point I had made up my mind to -never touch her- again!
Alas her parents bought her a ticket back up to washington, so I got some dope with her so she would get on the bus. Before that, me and her were all drugged out and I screwed her for the last time. She had dressed up for me in a black skirt, panty hose type things and a cute little shirt. She was pretty hot, she had dressed up just for me. I kinda felt sick about doing it but enjoyed it while I had it. I was on heroin so I didn't get off but damn if I didn't try. That was the last time I saw her and the last time I had sex--- almost exactly 11 months ago.
Back to my dream again, she was there and I kinda felt sick about her cause she was a street whore so I didn't want to really touch her but hell, we had ALOT of sex before she went all nasty, so we started having sex in my dream. I guess I wasn't getting off so well so I flipped her over and started to give her the ol' froggy style and the next thing I knew I ejaculated just about the most cum ever in my life(not the most, but it sure seemed like it), it felt like a fire hose, and then I awoke as I jizzed right into my undies. Thanks God for the nice dream hehe.