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Life After Censorship
Life After Censorship
Yesterday was the first time I saw Josh since he and I had a bad arguement over the phone and he finally told me that he had begun dating Sharee, our incarcerated friend's wife. He had moved in with them and their two sons after we split up a month ago and shortly after, Shane got arrested. I guess there's a lot to the story between Shane and his wife's 12yr. marriage that isn't my business to tell anyone, but she decided to divorce him this time and not make the same mistakes she'd made int he past. Timing is a bitch, because she and Josh were left to console eachother and so began their relationship. Did I mention that I am a week away from being 8 months pregnant with Josh's son? I am past the fact that we aren't together and have moved on and obviously begun dating, but I could not believe that the two of them were together and I wanted to kill Sharee. It didn't make it any better that Josh insisted that Sharee join him at my OB appointments every two weeks because he wanted her there (he wouldn't dare try to take her past the waiting room though), and yesterday's appointment had me shaking in my chair waiting for him and her to arrive. Luckily I got called back early and they got stuck in traffic so by the time they pulled up, I was getting in my car. Then they surprised me by asking me to go with them to dinner to talk. I said OK because believe me, I had things that satan himself wouldn't utter that I wanted to say to both of them badly. Strange how things don't happen that way though when you actually begin speaking....I walked behind them, arms crossed....eyes to the ground all the way to the table at the restraunt and it was quiet for a long time. Sharee insisted I order myself something on her so I chose something expensive, knowing she doesn't work. I was a bitch, I know. Anyway, to make a long story short, it actually ended in hugs and her coming to my baby shower. WTF? I got every thing that I had waited to say to them both face to face since October without sugar coating a bit, but in the 3hrs. we sat in that restraunt, not once did any arguements occur. They followed me to my apartment so Josh could see it and know where to pick me up when I go into labor and before I knew it, I was telling her it would be no problem if she came to the baby shower this weekend, not realizing every one of my family and friends want her dead. I just felt so much better like a huge weight was off my shoulders at the moment that I didn't realize I was welcoming a blood bath. We'll deal with that when the time comes on Sunday though......It felt good to look at my former boyfriend and the father of my child's 30yr. old girlfriend with a huge nasty/tacky hicky on her neck sitting beside him, and not be jealous...not be angry....not be sad. Just be. I forgot what that felt like. I fucking love it!
12/6/2005 3:27 pm
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12/7/2005 10:51 am
good for you, glad the pain is ending, hope you find what your looking for, have fun and take care cutie|
2/10/2006 3:49 am
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3/10/2007 4:16 am
Wow! That's a very personal bloq. So how are things between you and your ex now? Was Sharee dumb enough to go to the baby shower?|
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