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Old Flame wants new flare up.
Old Flame wants new flare up.
So I was sitting at home tonight, watching that Game Show Marathon, (I'll admit it, I really watch to see Paige Davis. She is the only reason I watch Trading Spaces. She is a beautiful woman.)when my phone rings.
I say hello, and it is a woman that I saw a few months after my wife and I separated. I have moved twice since we were seeing each other and have changed my number an equal number of times. So I ask how she got my number and she said information. (I began thinking that I probably should have put 2 and 2 together, but my brain was on cruise control I guess).
So we get into a conversation about what we are up to etc. Nothing too deep or meaningful. Then out of the blue, she says something like, "So I have been thinking about you, and I want to fuck you again." I really didn't know what to say. I mean it really isn't the normal type of phone conversation I am used to.
To give some background, we broke off our relationship because she was very dishonest with me. We had been seeing each other on and off, and we had decided that we were not going to sleep with other people. We weren't committed or in a heavy relationship, but to me a promise is a promise and I kept my side of the bargain. She did not. The sad thing was, I really didn't care if she wanted to be with other people (Like I said, we weren't that serious) but she broke her promise, and I was kind of sensitive to that after my wife had lied to me so much.
So she drops this bombshell on me, and I didn't know what to say. I said that I appreciated her thoughts and that I would get back to her. I thought about it for a couple of hours, then called her back and said I didn't think it would be a good idea.
She seemed disappointed and I hope I didn't hurt her feelings, but I really don't think I could go back. Always look forward I say. Besides, we weren't that close, and had we been in a long or very committed relationship I would consider giving it another shot, but we weren't that close.
It wasn't an easy decision for me to say no. We had the most amazing sex together. We had a very strong physical connection and it was strengthened by what I thought was a strong friendship. But I don't want just "friends-with-benefits" sex from someone I have that much of a past with. I think it is very hard to go back with someone who broke your trust. (Although to be fair, I may be too sensitive on this topic still) I also think she may have wanted the relationship to become more serious, despite my being very open about my not being in the frame of mind or life position for a serious relationship. I am afraid that if we slept together again, she may want more, and I don't think we would be a good match long term.
All in all, the conversations have kind of threw me for a loop, so I thought I would come here and vent...it is what it is here for by the way.
If you have any thoughts, please share. I am always willing to listen to the advice of others.
6/9/2006 5:53 pm
Sometimes there is just no going back, regardless of how good the sex is... or was. |
Having sex and enjoying it is largely a trust issue. If you can't trust someone, why would you trust them with your intimacy?
6/11/2006 9:28 pm
If she was dishonest with you once she'll be dishonest with you again.|
I think you made the right decision not to see her.
You thought with your head on your shoulders! Good man!
Oh, and welcome to blogland!
Teenagers are god's punishment for having sex!!