ALRIGHT!!! Enough already!!!!!!!!!  

willing2tryit42 40M
657 posts
3/20/2006 12:15 pm

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3/21/2006 9:23 pm

ALRIGHT!!! Enough already!!!!!!!!!


OK, I admit it. I've been freeloading since I got home. I'll sneak in view a blog, rarely drop a comment, and *poof* Houdini it outta there. So whats up with me? I have officially been diagnosed with PTSD!( post traumatic stress disorder) I have a script for paxil and lexapro, and have been convinced to seek counseling. FUCK THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!! My happiness does not need to be chemically induced! I will however seek the advice of........You! Yes my counselling sessions will take place right here. Don't get me wrong, I do not live in New Orleans, and there are many that are much more in need of help than I am. So I'm a do-it-yourself type of guy. I do need to decompress some though.
The guilt was too much to bear, I have applied to be re-instated in my old post with full authority and command aspects intact. I'm going back in. I have a spine and I know they wouldn't leave us outthere on our own. I can't run from this anymore. I will go til I can't !!!!! I just ask for prayer, encouragement, and the same giving of your support and caring you have always given. I'm not a head case by any means, and i'm not stupid, I have a contract with mandatory time off if they choose to re-instate me. I think I just needed time to accept some of the things i saw while i was there. So my fellow bloggers, wish me luck....... the season re-opens in June! I aint runnin no more. I aint scared. I aint crazy either. I am human, a man, and have weaknesses. This I accept, and make a conscious choice to move on and up.
When all is said and done, its not the results, its the journey that makes us who and what we are!

libgemOH 56M/52F

3/21/2006 3:48 am

Willing, You have become a bit special to me because of what I've read about you. You are not crazy, but what you went through this past fall would traumatize most. I have some background in mental health. I studied it in school for 2 years andhave studied it in life for most of mine. Most of my experience is been there, done that! PTSD is nothing to mess with. I wish there was something I could say to change your mind about seeking help, both in counseling and medications. You are correct in saying that the journey makes us who we are, but sometimes, there's flat tires and busted belts and other things that require help. WOuld love to discuss this with you privately if you'd care to email me.-B


willing2tryit42 40M
1141 posts
3/21/2006 9:23 pm

    Quoting libgemOH:
    Willing, You have become a bit special to me because of what I've read about you. You are not crazy, but what you went through this past fall would traumatize most. I have some background in mental health. I studied it in school for 2 years andhave studied it in life for most of mine. Most of my experience is been there, done that! PTSD is nothing to mess with. I wish there was something I could say to change your mind about seeking help, both in counseling and medications. You are correct in saying that the journey makes us who we are, but sometimes, there's flat tires and busted belts and other things that require help. WOuld love to discuss this with you privately if you'd care to email me.-B
I'd love it if you would like to talk about this more. I dont have a premium membership any,ore so I would have to give you a public email addy and then email you my private one!!!!


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