Trash or Treasure?  

widowsaddiction 47F
166 posts
5/20/2006 1:53 pm

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5/25/2006 10:48 pm

Trash or Treasure?

What makes one worthy of anothers affection? Is it the way a person looks, the active gray matter up above, the way they smell? Is it something deeper than that...or perhaps something a tad more shallow?

I myself, for all intents and purposes, would be thought of as a shallow girl, and I am (I admit) in a lot of ways. I love to look good, I love to smell great and I can't walk away from a beautiful pair of shoes. However, there is more to me than that, as I suspect there is to everyone I come across. BUT! I can't help but wonder if that is true when I spend some quality time with my white trash family.

I came from nothing, less than nothing actually, and have built myself into something. I have money and all the trappings that money can buy, but under it all, I know I will always be white trash. I can't help it. I would rather go to a big BBQ with family than a 5 star restaurant, would rather buy ten of something that I love that is of poor quality than one of great quality that I'm just kind of "eh" about. Now, don't get me wrong, I love my Jimmy Choo's and Manolo's....but there is just something that draws me to a $25 dollar pair of hooker heels that I can't explain.

There is, however, an undercurrent of always wanting to do better. I can't ever sit still and just be happy with what I have, I always feel the need to push and be better. I wonder, does that Nascar Momma of 5 over there feel that way, or is she as truly content as she looks? Does Hillbilly Hank have no desire to travel across the sea to experience another life, is he really content to sit on his porch and watch as traffic runs through his front yard? And what about Trailer Trash Tammy? Is she lying, or is she really happy with her honey, content to work all week just so they can go to the local dive and hang out with their friends on Saturday night? I wonder...are they content? Are they happy? My parents are perfectly content to continue to live the way I was raised, so are THEY content and happy?

I think they are....all of them. I think they are all content, satisfied and happy.

Oh, how I envy them all.

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
5/21/2006 12:31 pm

i like to look good, but i like to do it as cheap as possible. i don't by any brand names AT ALL! funnily enough, i do get complimented on my dress sense and then love to make people uncomfortable by telling them which cheap shop i got it from!! i don't think material stuff can make you happy ... all it can do is make you look good ... it is not the lack of material things for myself that makes me dissatisfied, but the destitution of a large part of the population of the country (to many people can't even eat every day).

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5/22/2006 4:42 am

Some poeple come from "outside of the system" so to speak.

This is part of the "unexplainable".

And what I mean by this is that I was always drawn to the hyper expensive, the costly , the ornate but I was not born there. Not even close for my parents were both children of the depression who essentially came from "nothing" financially speaking.

And neither of my parents had those sorts of sensibilities nor was I ever given that sort of expensive example by anyone in my life.

It was simply there from day one. Or so said my mother.

I was a spoiled child yet nobody ever spoiled me. Not in this life anyway but I honestly beleive that I indeed was spoiled in another.

But this life has taught me to be a less spoiled person and to be happy with that. I truly think I was some sort of prince or some other type of overly privelaged person before this.



5/22/2006 4:43 am

PS. There used to be dance club in LA in the mid 80's called White Trash AuGoGo.


widowsaddiction 47F

5/25/2006 10:48 pm

Free-I knew there was a reason I adore you!

KC-Honest to goodness, I wonder sometimes if we are some kind of twin. I have always been that way as well, and it wasn't taught.

You are KILLING me with these White Trash comments!

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