So much has happend in 2006  

widowsaddiction 47F
166 posts
3/28/2006 8:08 pm
So much has happend in 2006

I just went in and re-read and revealed some of my old hidden posts about this man that is driving me to distraction. My purpose for this? I'm a stupid woman and I need to continue the saga.

Since the end of December, I have been seeing the man I describe in my former blogs. I am crazy about this man, and though I do believe him to have a genuine fondness for me, I don't think it goes beyond that.

This relationship has been going on since April of 1999 (off and on) and I cannot believe I am still completely entrenched in him. The things that I allow him to do and say are ridiculous, to say the least. I do believe I love this man more purely than any other, because I really do want him to be happy, and if that means I have to listen to him talk about her while I cry silently on the phone over a love that will never be....well, then, so be it.

Stupid. I am so stupid.

Since our time together at Christmas, we've had a few encounters. The most memorable was when he literally jumped out of my bed to run to her when she snapped her fingers. The craziness in all this is the fact that she seems to care as little about him and his feelings as he does about mine.

Karma, baby.

Because I cannot contact him (per his wishes) and he doesn't contact me but maybe once every two weeks (Damn, I'm grateful....when this began, I wouldn't hear from him for MONTHS!) I feel I need a place to vent. Since I curse like a trucker, and most of our relationship is based on sex, there is no better place to come than A*F*F.

It's nice to be home. I hope you bitches missed me!

talance 58M

4/3/2006 12:27 am

Yeah...I missed you.

Call me if you get the chance!

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