being present, honoring the moment  

wickedeasy 67F  
15437 posts
6/23/2006 12:24 pm
being present, honoring the moment

in my meditation this morning - i continued to work with the koan about being outside the gate. as i sat, the concept of being present began to ease its way into my body and i found myself relaxing totally. in that moment of sweet surrender to the moment i felt the moment in its entirety. just that moment. at just that moment. and another layer of the koan opened to me. being "not outside the gate" has little to do with circumstance and everything to do with being open.

being present in a way that brings peace and awareness is not being everything you are, all at once, all the time. it is so much more simple. it was being what you are at that moment in that circumstance and honoring it.

with all that is happening in my life in all the different parts, i was feverishly trying to blend everything into a gestalt - but there is no gestalt.

to be present for my son in his need, is to be present for him without thought of anything else. to be there, thinking only of him at that moment, with that need, and our love.

see, i don't much like admitting i'm wrong - it's the alpha dog thing in me. but when this clarity appeared, it was like the feel of wind in your face. if you really are present with the wind in your face - then the wind is as much you at that moment as it is itself.

to honor my Sir, to honor my son, to honor my work, me, my family - each is intrinsically its own - each must be honored as itself. it came to me like a physical blow that i cannot honor one thing while wrapped in the cloak of another thing. and the man outside the gate was exactly that. outside the gate but with no sense of needing to alter where he was or to enter. being outside the gate did not mean he was "outside" it meant that he was exactly where he was.

am i making sense? - it feels so important- it is making me cry and laugh

i will spend more time with this koan i am sure. but tomorrow i do believe i will try to feel just what i feel just when i feel it and see if i can be more of myself and less of my life.

You cannot conceive the many without the one.

buddhamike 106M
7006 posts
6/23/2006 1:49 pm

Wonderful thoughts.

wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:06 am:
luckily i didn't get all woohoo until after my meditation was over - but then - well the day was jsut filled with perfect examples

amaste my friend

MaggiesWishes 60F

6/23/2006 1:51 pm

Perfectly sensible.
I like your thoughts

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wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:07 am:
now listen missy - i've been over there beating them off MzHuny and you since dawn - my arms are tired

somethingelse40 75M
14676 posts
6/23/2006 2:10 pm

Is your life based on a true story?

wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:08 am:
now that's a koan in and of itself

thank you - i like that

NGs_lady 64F
762 posts
6/23/2006 2:22 pm

Please explain about kona it sounds good

Hugs and love


wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:09 am:
remember i told you about meditating on a koan from my guru? koans are small stories with implicit lessons but the lessons aren't just there - they have to be lived to be understood.

kind of what we were talking aobut when we disucssed respect - yanno?

HBowt2 59F

6/23/2006 6:31 pm

honour is a good thing to have a do...without it we are lost

libgemOH 56M/52F

6/23/2006 7:31 pm

Not sure of all the technical terms you speak of, but I do know I have been in the place you are talking about on a few occasions, just here, nowhere else, just now, nowhen else. It is the most peaceful, exciting and fulfilling feeling in the world!! -B

wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:13 am:
smiles - yup - when you;re there, truly right there in the moment well it's just freaking extraordinary

god all you folks are so cool - i tried telling this to a colleague and they got all glassy eyed on me

warmandsexy52 64M
13164 posts
6/24/2006 2:23 am

Honour attaches value and meaning.

Without meaning what is there in life?

warm xx

wickedeasy replies on 6/24/2006 10:19 am:
yes - but being an honourable person is different than what i am talkign about (so unclearly)

i am trying to be in the moment, truly present with whatever i am ding, whoever i am doing it with so that i honor the gift of the moment of the shared experience

wickedeasy 67F  
26746 posts
6/24/2006 10:22 am

a funny thing happened this morning as i sat in meditation - the dog kept licking my face and i was finding it difficult to trance - then i remembered my teacher saying on a day when we were all dripping sweat because it was so damn hot in the room we were in - be one with the heat -

so, i was one with the dog and as i opened myself to the love he was showing me, i tranced - he was sound asleep with his head on my lap when i finished.

thank you Charlie for teaching me what i needed to learn this morning

You cannot conceive the many without the one.

somethingelse40 75M
14676 posts
6/24/2006 11:12 am

I was beginning to think my trusty Complete Idiot’s Guide to Understanding Buddhism makes no indexed reference to the word “koan,” and it didn’t show up in my MS spell checker? Yet on closer examination I did find it in the Index (referencing “Expressing the Inexpressible: Mondo and Koans on page 211) and defined in the Glossary; and a precursory Google expedition yielded many interesting avenues and side roads to the concept. I have traveled widely and have learned to sneeze, cough, and screw in many languages or in one single koan. Yet something in me still feels the same way I did before my last orgasm.

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