Time to get out now! Time to come back to life!  

wetnwildaquarius 44F
574 posts
8/17/2005 7:36 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Time to get out now! Time to come back to life!

I have been down and depressed for soem time now and I realize that I am not going to be happy unless I motivate my ass. So now this weekend I am going out to meet people and have a good time again. I have been so down about my engagment ending meeting jerks on this sites and I didn't think that I let all this go with unfortunate incidents happening back to back. It totally discourage me from meeting anyone for a while and now I am not going to be lonely or sad for anyone anymore. Now I can say these men can kiss my natural beautiful ass with the beauty mark on the side of my right cheek.

How dare I deprive myself of being happy and meeting someone decent for once in my life? How dare I sit around wondering if any of these creeps would come and realize their errors. There are millions and millions of eligible bachelors' looking for a damn good woman who can take care of home like I can. I know that alot of my blogs have been up and down, but that is how I have been feeling lately and I allowed it to happen. I should have been stronger and wiser, but it's ok now.

I had to dig deep down and pull out the negative energy. Though I am not done with totally healing yet at least I am starting to see the light. This had been a long and hard road for me along with the trend of failed relationships with men also. I still have to overcome that fear of being hurt by abusive men, but I was told by a good friend that only a strong and good man can help finally lay that to rest forever.

SO I know somewhere in this great big world is a good man who just needs a good woman to hold his back while he works and handles his business. I am not a seeker because I was taught that a woman is sought; so I will wait for him to find me.

In the meantime I am going to keep building myself up so that he does not have much work to do. I have to keep on my journey down the road of success until I get to where I am going and achieve my goals. I am close to getting my degree and living comfortably. If I don't meet that person then I will just keep spoiling and being good to myslef for the rest of my life. Being alone is not that bad actually. It's rather peaceful.

So now I am finding peace within myself.


wetnwildaquarius 44F

8/17/2005 8:44 am

No I am not and I don't want meds for something I can handle myself. I will deal with this the old fashion way. I am already alright sweety. Venting is just a ways for me to express myself and feeling better in the end. I need to do this as often as I can until I start to see myself writing and feeling different about my views in relationships and men. As I said it will take a special man to help me resolve these reservations once and for all. So I know what I need.


Sizzle364
(Juan S)
52M
2642 posts
8/17/2005 11:38 am

Yes, boo...It will take a strong and special man to give you the fulfillment that you need.
He could be right under your nose...blocked by the little boys that you have been meeting.
Little boys because they still choose to play mental games. As to the seeking verses sought situation... Too many situations between men and women have f'd that up since that statement and sentiment was created. DO NOT...UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES...
NEGLECT...GOING FOR WHAT YOU WANT! The man you seek, may have been damaged himself and not realize that you would accept him and that has NOTHING to do with a lack of confidence on his part...


wetnwildaquarius 44F

8/17/2005 12:02 pm

Damn siz! Now that's deep baby! You might be on to something babe! Call me later if you get a moment.


rm_easy4058 53M
3 posts
8/17/2005 3:38 pm

read my profile maybe the one that you have be ignoring is the one you should have look into. read my messages I sent and profile. Than read in between the lines than put it together. I had been wondering why I have been so determine to meet. afther reading your blog today I see. A beauty woman who it inteligent and got her man back is hard to friend and rare now day. you have the number call it. stay sweet!


wetnwildaquarius 44F

8/18/2005 5:29 pm

I got where you are going easy and I am not ignoring you. Promise that! We will!


wetnwildaquarius 44F

8/18/2005 7:57 pm

Yeah 313Dick! I know the saying well baby! I know who I can count on! Always no matter what happens! I got your back too! Peace! Thanks for keeping it real as you have always done since I've met you up close and personal.(hint hint hint right back at you baby!)


SetonRoilsJokes 48
59 posts
8/19/2005 11:08 pm

SWEETIE- DONT LET NO PERSON DEFINE WHO YOU ARE- GOD MADE YOU A BEAUTIFUL PERSON INSIDE AND OUT. HE PUT YOU ON THE EARTH TO BRING SUNSHINE AND ENLIGHTENMENT TO OUR LIVES.

REMEMEBER THAT YOU ARE A STRONG ,SEXY,SWEET,SMART BLACK WOMAN WHO CAN ACCOMPLISH ANYHTING YOU WANT AND NO REAL MAN WILL DEPRIEVE YOU OF BEING THAT TYPE OF WOMAN.

IF ANYHTING THEY ARE GOING TO HELP YOU MAINTAIN BEING THE WOMAN YOU ARE AND SHOW YOU A HUGE AMOUNT OF LOVE AND SUPPORT AND ACCEPT YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE AND STOP PLAYING THE MENTAL AND EMOTIONAL GAMES.

AS LONG AS YOU KEEP GOD FIRST AND BELIVE IN HIM- HE WILL TAKE YOU WHERE YOU NEED TO GO.AND GOD WILL SURROUND YOU WITH THE RIGHT PEOPLE.
AND AS YOU CAN SEE YOU GET MAD LOVE ON YOUR BLOGS FOR THE PERSON THAT WE ADORE AND ADMIRE.

STAY REAL AND KEEP IT HONEST!!!


wetnwildaquarius 44F

8/20/2005 2:02 pm

Awwwwwwwwww! Thank you Romman68. You are a sweetheart. I will keep that in mind always and forever. You are my homie!


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