dead man walking  

way2big2000 38M
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11/4/2005 6:04 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

dead man walking


hi it's me again. so some one is reading this? i never planed for that. but it's ok, i'v been thinking about it for a few days and i'm fine with that. but we need to make somethings clear. no this is not a joke, not a cry for help, not anything but the real me. you want to read? you want to see? that's fine with me. i think it's like a bad car crash, we slow down to look, but we wont say it out loud, but we want to see the body dont we? that's ok i'll be the body for you, but you need to do something for me. you need to put your hand under the sheet and touch the shape under the sheet. can we play with maddness you and i? can we? then lets play. when was the last time you wanted to die? can you tell me that? can you think of the last time you felt like your whole world was ripped out of your soul? when did you have everthing taking from you and you could not stop it? when did you loss your heart, your mind, your everything. do you know what it's like to see her face when you close your eyes? but you cant have her. i'm left with the why. why did this happen? why cant she just tell me? why am i still crying and bitching like a, well like a bitch? what do i do to forget about her? i dont want another one i just want her back but i know that will never happen will it? i have nothing now just the hurt the pain the rage the anger and the nothing. just a few more things to take care of and this well all be over. time to go flood my body with everything that i can find to kill the the pain. i'll see you soon.

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