Day 32 - "To be or not to be, that is the question"  

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Day 32 - "To be or not to be, that is the question"

"To be or not to be, that is the question.."
A very contemplative title for today's little entry, is it not? The real question is," what to do now ?". To those of you who, who for some miraculous reason, have been following my rants and raves for the past month, I want to reach out for some advice. Even with a sudden increase in women initiating contact with me either through winks or e-mail, there are only two that have
really sparked a serious non-sexual reaction inside me. It's a warm honest open feeling, that you want to grow and get stronger every day. I'll be honest by acknowledging that these two women also stir other sexual desires as well with their incredible good looks. After having long IM conversations with both, I'm even more intrigued with both of them. One is near by, only a few miles away while the other is a couple of hours away by car. For anonymity sake, I'll refer to
one as AJ and the other as PA. AJ is the closest one and I've had more conversational time with her. PA isn't exactly nearby, but got my attention right from the start with her brassy, straight forward profile. My bit of honesty here, is that I really want to get to know AJ better. She's a sweet girl, with a great personality. When you look at her eyes, all full of life and happiness and her big beautiful smile, it sends this feeling of warmth coursing through you. You can't help feeling good and happy yourself. Well that's the case for me. AJ has some things going on in her life that have her "distracted" and make it difficult to actually date and get out right now. I've told her, that as a single parent
myself, I more than understand that her child comes FIRST before everything. I' don't want AJ to feel pressured or that I'm trying to push her in any way. At the same time, I'd hate to miss out on the possibility of having someone like her in my life, as a friend or maybe more.

This is where I come to you for any advice or feedback you have to offer.

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