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Reincarnation, bring it on!
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May 10, 2012 9:13 pm
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If there is such a thing as, 'reincarnation', I must have had a wonderful life, in a preexistence! 
Because, all I can say is, this life sucks, big style.
I would like, just for once, something nice to happen. 
I know lots of people are in the same boat, as I find myself in.
But the shit seems, never-ending! 
Work either has me working my ass of, for a pittance, or they have me, sitting at home, with no work, making no money, what-so-ever.
The hounds, are beating a path to my door & I have no juicy steak, to keep them happy. 
The only way I can see a small light, at the end of the tunnel, is to sell my house & move hundreds of miles away from my friends, to a new area, where the houses are cheaper & I can clear some of my debts off. 
My job takes me all over the country, so it really doesn't make a whole lot of difference, where my base is.
But then I hit the catch 22 situation.
To be able to get a fair price for my house, I need to do it up.
It's a bit hard, when I don't have a pot to piss in! 
When my Father passed away, he didn't leave enough money for his funeral & I didn't have the money to help out, so I had to borrow money from a friend, which I'm still paying back.
My so called brother, said that if I did this, he would pay for the internment of our Father's ashes, in the family plot, with my Father's Mother, Father & his Wife. 
Well, let's just say, my Father is still in a box, in my sitting room, since October, because my brother has gone back on his word & won't part with his money. 
Which is only a fraction of what I had to borrow & pay back.
And until I pay back the loan for the funeral, or sell my house, I can't afford to do it myself. 
I wouldn't mind so much, but it was about the only thing my Father ever wanted, was to have his ashes buried with my Mother.
OK, I apologize for the rant, probably something to do with the lack of sleep I've been experiencing. 
But all I can say is, roll on reincarnation, because hopefully my next incarnation will be a blinder! 
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Control!
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Apr 13, 2012 2:06 am
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No one likes to loose control.
But there is nothing worse.
It's a sign of weakness, of not being up to the task.
And still, there are times, when it just gets away from you.
When the world stops spinning & you realize, that nothing, is going to save you.
No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. 
And it's scary as hell.
If there is an up side to free falling, it's the chance, you get your friends to catch you! 
Thank-you to all of my friends on here, who have caught me, when I have fallen in the past. 
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I've heard it all now!
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Mar 2, 2012 5:50 pm
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For those of you, who live a little further afield, I need to explain to you, an institution we have over here called, The Eurovision Song Contest.
Once a year, most of Europe, puts forward either a singer or a group, to represent their country, in a singing competition.
Let's just say, that most of the acts, can be classed as a joke. 
If you live outside of the European Nation, the only band, who ever made it big, after winning the competition, was ABBA.
Well, on the news tonight, they released the name of the singer, who is going to sing for England this year.
When I first heard who they had picked, I burst out laughing & thought to myself, that England had run out of talent & we were really scraping the bottom of the barrel, with this years choice!
Out of the millions of singing acts, they could have chosen from, to sing on our behalf, do you know who they picked????
Engelbert Humperdinck!!!!
For Christ's sake, the man is 75yrs old & hasn't had a hit record, since the 70's.
We really do not stand, hope in Hell, of winning, this year competition.
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Shit head!
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Feb 24, 2012 8:25 pm
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I'm sorry to the rest of the male population on here, but there is one of you out there, who really deserves to be called, a hell of a lot worse, than just a shit head!
As far as I know, the mail inbox, on this site, is subject to the receiver's wishes, as to weather they would like to respond to them or not? 
I have had a real dickhead, who has been trying to contact me, for sexual favors.
First of all, this so called, male of the species, who has claimed to have read my profile, even when it states that I'm only here to email & not to meet, thinks I'm prepared to drop everything, to spend the night with him, even though he has never spoken to me.
Because I chose to ignore his messages to me, he sent me a very nasty response.
He wished, 'That I would one day get my cum upance.' (Yep, I also love the spelling) & that I would also get, 'A fucking dose', because I was, 'A slag'!
Nice man, don't you think???
So I would like to name & shame this wanker, so that the other women on this site, do not fall for his charms.
So if you ever get a message from a real arsehole called, 'dirtytalking1, from Reading in England', bar him on the spot. Because he really is, a nasty piece of work!
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Kiss Kiss!
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Feb 13, 2012 7:58 pm
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I hope you all have a wonderful Valentines Day.
My love to you all.
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Bleeuurrgghh!!!!!!!!!!
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Feb 13, 2012 7:25 pm
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OK, I would like to know who ordered the renovators in?
I seem to have a plummer up my nose, trying his best, to fix a running tap.
There is a decorator in my throat, preparing the walls, with an electric sander.
I have a heating specialist, playing around with my internal thermostat.
And there are two builders, in my head with sledgehammers, trying their best to demolish my brain.
Oh what fun it is to have a cold/flu!
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Sorry folks!
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Jan 31, 2012 6:15 pm
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I apologize for not being around for a while, but I have been left unable to log onto here, before now.
The month hasn't been that kind to me.
Money has been a little short, so luxuries have been placed on the back burner.
My personal dongle being one of them.
I have 2, my own & a works one, (paid by the company I work for).
Unfortunately, the works one has been restricted, by them & won't let me play on here.
Bastards!!!
Anyway, the bill came & went on mine & I was unable to pay, so they cut me off in my prime!
Even the phone company I use for my dongle, doesn't like me having any fun either. 
Such is my life!!!
Anyway, other luxuries went by the wayside as well.
Having to give up smoking ready made cigarettes for roll ups for over 2 weeks, was not fun.
I know, before you say it, it may have been time to give up the little cancer sticks, but, having to give up drinking, my favorite foods, going out & everything else, I just couldn't do it.
I've already given up on sex, so I need something in life, that I can still enjoy! 
Had to sell my soul to the devil, with having to borrow Money from friends, was not good either.
I had to drive home from work on Monday morning, not knowing if I had enough fuel to make it back there.
Not a good idea to run out on a motorway, just before rush hour. 
So I've now been paid, but by the time I've paid everyone back, I will be in the same boat, yet again.
Think you can call that, 'Catch 22'.
I really need my lottery numbers to come up for me this week!
Chance would be a fine thing!!!!
So it has taken me 2 days, to play catch up on everyone's blogs.
I'm sorry, but I haven't left any comments, as if I had, I would be here for a month of Sundays, trying to do so.
So from now on, I will try my best, to keep up.
Unless they cut me off again, that is!
Maybe the sun may come out to shine on me soon? 
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Strange evening!
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Jan 14, 2012 9:41 pm
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Well it has reached that time of the year, in which I have gained yet another number, to the end of my age.
Because my Birthday this year, fell on a Sunday, I went out this evening,(Saturday), to celebrate.
Even though some people didn't turn up, when they said they would, there was still enough out to play, to make it a very good night.
I'm now sitting in my front room, after consuming a very large amount of alcohol, watching a very old film called, 'A matter of life or death'. (One of my favourite films), with my so called boyfriend, asleep in the spare bedroom & one of my ex boyfriends asleep on the sofa beside me.
I will admit, my life can get a little strange, at times, but tonight is one of the strangest! 
So as I sit here watching one of the most romantic films, ever made, about love being stronger, than even death itself, I will probably be going to bed with my cat.
So I will finish watching the end of the film, as my ex snores beside me & my current boyfriend snores away in a different room to myself, I will go to sleep, cuddle up to my pussy.
Probably not a bad move really.
The cat doesn't snore!
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An un-eventful day!
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Dec 26, 2011 2:32 am
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Well I cant say that my Christmas has been exciting or even present filled.
I have been working night shifts, from the Christmas Eve & will be doing so, until New Years Eve morning.
I spent Christmas day, in my hotel room, trying to get some sleep, before I had to return back to work that evening, on a lumpy, hard & unfamiliar bed, all alone.
As for my other half's present to me, I got the same as I got last year, only a different colour!
I know that I should be used to it by now, but just once, it would be nice if he thought about getting me something.
Even a bar of chocolate would be nice.
Well I'm just about to try & get some sleep again, on Boxing Day morning, in the same lumpy, hard & unfamiliar bed, all alone, as I have done for the last 2 days & will be doing so, for the next 5.
Then I finally get to go home & sleep in my own bed, for a few hours, before I go to my local watering hole, to help usher in a whole New Year, with my friends. 
Lets just hope that this coming year, is a hell of a lot better, than this one turned out to be, a little over 12 months ago.
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Winter's chill!
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Dec 6, 2011 2:52 pm
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Ok, I will now admit it, Winter is finally upon us.
Lucky enough for me, the little cabin I am working in, has a nice little heater.
And for a change, it happens to be working!
It's only when someone comes in, that they let out all of the heat, from my own personal little sauna I have made, as it wafts straight out of the door.
And when I have to go out to feed my nasty little habit for a fag, I freeze my bloody tits off!
The one advantage I have, with the weather being this cold, is that the heavens are ablaze with stars.
I get to have wonderful views of the nights sky, in all of it's glory.
The only problem being is, it's too bloody cold to stay out too long & admire it.
Why is it in England, when we have any sort of meteor shower, the skies are usually clouded over?
As if they were to show up on a night like tonight, I would have a spectacular show to watch!
There's also one more little thing, that is a little unpleasant, when there is a chill in the air, an outside toilet, otherwise known as a port-a-crapper, is no fun on ones derriere!
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Alone!
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Nov 20, 2011 3:31 pm
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We enter this world alone & we leave it alone.
And everything that happens in between, we owe it to ourselves, to find a little company.
We need help, we need support, otherwise we are in it, all by ourselves.
Strangers, cut off from each other & we forget, just how connected we all are.
So instead, we choose LOVE, we choose LIFE & for a moment, we feel, just a little bit less alone! 
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Me time!
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Nov 12, 2011 7:46 am
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Last Monday, I had my 1st, 'Me day', in what seemed like years.
Me & my partner had been working away from home near Southampton, last weekend & our company had given us a hotel while we were there.
The job finished early, so instead of driving home, in the early hours of the morning, as we usually do, I went back to the hotel & took advantage of it, till kicking out time at 11am.
We got up, had breakfast & then went on a magical mystery tour of the coast, from Southampton & ending up in Weymouth, my favorite seaside destination.
The weather that day, wasn't as nice as it had been on the Sunday.
It was very overcast, but at least it wasn't raining.
After a few pit-stops, along the coast, we ended up in Weymouth, were we found ourselves a nice little pub, that had a lovely open fire going & a large pan of mulled cider on the go.
After that, the other half decided that having a look around the shops with me, was not one of his favorite things in the world, so he went back to the van for a snooze.
So left to my own devices, I went exploring. 
I love the weird & wonderful array of shops you only get at the seaside.
Even thou I didn't buy myself anything, (Trust me, if I had the money I would have), I ended up on the beach.
For those of you, who have never been to Weymouth, the sand there is absolutely wonderful.
It is so fine, that in the summer there is a man who makes the most wonderful sand sculptures with it.
His work was still there on my visit on Monday.
He had carved the cast of Johnny Depp version of Alice in Wonderland & the cast of Pooh Bear.
All out of only sand & water.
So after admiring his work for a little while, I made my way onto the sand.
Off came the shoes & there I was, beside the occasional dog walker, strolling along a nearly deserted beach. 
I did get a few strange looks from the dog walkers, who were dressed up to the hilt with Winter clothes & boots & me barefoot.
But I didn't care.
To just walk along, with the soft sand beneath my feet was wonderful.
I spent about an hour, just lost in my own thoughts & the rest of my world, far behind me.
Nothing, in the past couple of years has come anywhere near it!
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Winter blues!
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Nov 1, 2011 1:29 pm
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Isn't funny, how the seasons can affect us so much.
How our moods can change, from happy go lucky, when the days are longer & the temperatures higher.
To doom & gloom, as our days shorten & the weather gets crisper.
I've always been a people watcher.
I love just sitting back & watching others, interact with one another.
When you watch them over a time period, you get to see the cloud descend on them, as Winter approaches.
I have even noticed these changes, within our little blogging community.
It's interesting to watch those who blog, from the opposite side of the globe from ourselves.
As the cloud is lifted from their shoulders, as Winter draws away from them, you can see it settle on ours & vice versa .
I found a similar connection with the emails I had received from a fellow blogger, over the last few years.
From now, till the end of January, their messages have taken on the 'Winter blues', every year since 2008.
So I have come to this conclusion, we all need to go out & buy ourselves the biggest sunlight lamp we can find & just camp out in front of it, for the whole of the winter period!
It has too be better than feeling sorry for ourselves, hasn't it?????
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