Where for art thou?  

wanderlust1176 41F
93 posts
4/20/2005 1:48 pm

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Where for art thou?

There is no way I can get on with my day until I throw some thoughts out there.
Why is it, I ask, that it seems as though it is Not Ok to be seeking love, to want to love and be loved? I would attribute it to some sort of conditioning, if I knew where that conditioning came from. In my case, fear of rejection is pretty high on the list, making mistakes my children would have to pay for, and falling under a label that is not very flattering. Wayne's World is what always comes to mind, Stacy, labeled the 'psycho-hose-beast' following Wayne around not getting a clue and making a fool of herself.
My fears certainly have a hand in my singlehood. And yet celebacy does not work for me, not at all, and so tell myself that, tra la la, Im not looking for more, only sex. I wonder how many other people on AdultFriendFinder this is true for, especially the women.
But as I told a new friend earlier today, I would much rather be coming to this as a couple than as the singleton I am. Wouldnt it be grand, to delight in going to a club together, as well as the grocery store and anywhere else?
A fact I have been coming to grips with these last few months, especially lately, is that I am not a loner, I am basically a domestic sort of lady. True, I would rather spend the next 20 years alone rather than invite a wolf into my home to ruin my life and the lives of my children. The problem being that wolves often wear sheep's clothing.
And yet the hope is alive and well in me, and if that drives off my admirers so be it.

walt7039413894 64M

4/20/2005 3:40 pm

I wonder if you were married and had children or if you just had children without regard to marriage. Men may sometimes hesitate to take on the responsibility of a commitment to a woman, but are even more wary of taking on the responsibility of taking care of another man's children. I hope you find an admirer that can handle the whole package.

chowbox2004 43M
210 posts
4/20/2005 3:50 pm

Good luck in your hunt! You are young and very attractive. Dont worry, you will find someone great to fill your life!

rm_amerotica 48F

4/20/2005 4:48 pm

girl power-love ur blog

wanderlust1176 41F

4/20/2005 6:00 pm

They are not 'another man's' children, they are MY children. But of course, I am aware of your point. In the end it is all a matter of perspective, but thanks for commenting!

cochise226922 46M

4/20/2005 8:18 pm

"Where for art thou" you ask? I am here. I for one find you fascinating and intriguing. You provoke my thoughts and arouse my...intellect, and for that you earn my respect and my attention. I cannot imagine you dealing with any type of rejection, and I can assure you it would not come from me. I myself would not be able to stand the next 20 years as a singleton, and am definitely carousing the hills in my sheeps tuxedo looking for a life mate. But as I told a new friend I've spoken to a couple times today - I am NO wolf (although I may howl like one from time to time). Good luck in your searh wanderlust, may you find me soon.

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