Indulgence  

wanderlust1176 41F
93 posts
4/21/2005 6:29 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Indulgence


I love my therapist. And that is saying alot, since I have been in and out of therapy for most of my life, and have never met one I liked. I wonder if she is pulling some psycho-mind trick on me to make me like her.
While in her office, she indulges me as though I were some famous and eccentric author, already brilliant, already accomplished. She refers to my hopes and dreams as though they are just around the corner, as though they are that easy to attain. And when times are hard and I'm sad, even she tears up, such is her empathy.
I tell her everything, all of my sexual exploits and philosophies, and never does she make the 'sexually acting out' connection. At least not verbally.
Normally, I would be racking my brain to figure out her angle, her trick. But perhaps she just thinks that what I need is someone in my corner, someone on my team. And that is refreshing.
I used to be very hesitant in admitting my need for therapy, that my brain needs medication, that my heart needs healing. Public opinion on this is wide and varied, not to mention whenever my ex-husband wanted to get under my skin he would call me 'crazy'.
Normally, I am very guarded about this part of my life, but no more. And so I use this forum to test out my new theory, that I will be a happier, wholer person if I own all that I am, leaving nothing in the dark.

rm_indul_gent1 55M
89 posts
4/21/2005 7:38 am

There is something therapeutic and undeniably liberating about baring one's innermost thoughts in this forum. I love your honesty and the fearless unapolagetic acceptance of all that you are.


rm_reisender04 53M

4/21/2005 12:21 pm

Therapist? I think my new profile might put me in line for one of those


cochise226922 46M

4/22/2005 4:48 am

You go girl! I have never met a therapist I liked and prefer to simply ramble on to myself or to anyone else who will listen, although this is uusally short lived as those who hear your problems eagerly the first time or two suddenly have less and less time to listen...understandable for sure - but the world is my therapist.

I have begun to share my deeper thoughts here as well and will continue to do so - I enjoy writing them out and feel refreshed after. I enjoy reading of others issues and thoughts as well, as it helps to ground me and let me know I'm not alone.

So...what deep dark secrets are you going to share first?


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