What do you want???  

wakemeup31 42M
39 posts
5/8/2006 7:51 pm

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5/14/2006 6:20 am

What do you want???


It's a rather simple question to ask, but sooooo much more difficult to answer.
When I was first asked that this year, the answer was "sex with you in the shower". After seeing the look on her face, I don't think I listened to the question well enough. It's a common mistake, she was naked in my bed after all...

Then I hear it the other day. This time it's different. I met her a few weeks ago and we've been hanging out together at our favorite bar. Aside from the touchy-feely hug I get when I first see her, I have no idea what's going on in her head.

She asked me that question. I told her, "Honestly, I don't know what I want. I've pretty much dated the same woman since I was a freshman in high school. When we weren't dating, I barely saw anyone else. This whole thing is new to me. Hell, I don't even know how to act on a date."
Oh yeah, I could have sugar coated it by saying I wanted someone just like her, but the question took me by surprise and I really didn't want to feed her a line of crap. It's true, I don't know what I want. If I don't see what's out there, I'll never know...
I listened to the question this time, just wasn't sure of the answer.

rm_chislut 42F
710 posts
5/12/2006 1:02 pm

Very much trying to figure this out myself lately...


wakemeup31 replies on 5/12/2006 11:09 pm:
It's a different story for you Chi, you're a victim of you own success. 400 + emails in the time you were away... I'm not sure if I've ever even met that many people in my lifetime. You said AdultFriendFinder gave the women all the power... 8 to 1 ratio if I remember correctly.
The odds are against the men no matter how much they try...
I'm content with just being me and being here. What happens happens, for a reason or not...

rm_chislut 42F
710 posts
5/13/2006 10:32 pm

wakemeup31 replies on 5/12/2006 11:09 pm:
It's a different story for you Chi, you're a victim of you own success. 400 + emails in the time you were away... I'm not sure if I've ever even met that many people in my lifetime. You said AdultFriendFinder gave the women all the power... 8 to 1 ratio if I remember correctly.
The odds are against the men no matter how much they try...
I'm content with just being me and being here. What happens happens, for a reason or not...


Well, yes and no. If you don't know what you want... If you REALLY don't know, then having a gazillion choices or zero choices is the same thing. Well, ok, maybe not. With ZERO choices, you don't have to worry about making the wrong choice, do you?


wakemeup31 replies on 5/14/2006 6:20 am:
The objective is to find out what you want. I wrote, "It's true, I don't know what I want. If I don't see what's out there, I'll never know...". Focus on that thought Chi. Of course in choosing a course of action for any problem, no course of action is always a choice. If you REALLY don't know what you want, how could having ZERO choices help you decide? When I go into Binny's Beverage Depot to buy some liquor, I may not know right away whether I want wine, vodka, or kahula, but I want the shelves to be stocked.

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