Energy and Desire  

waggypolly 72F
7449 posts
11/28/2005 11:36 pm

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11/12/2006 3:24 am

Energy and Desire

The tension between Polly and Jeanne is very physical. Sometimes my body feels like a battle ground where the power which is Polly’s drive to give me physical pleasure surges up and moves around. It smacks into Jeanne’s strong wall of defence. She doesn’t just want to stop Polly doing things; she wants to stop Polly feeling things. She thinks she is protecting me; she doesn’t see how she is denying me the pleasures that Polly instinctively moves towards. What an amazing duo these two are going to be when they learn how to merge into mutual support.

Polly’s desires are all for my pleasure, physical gratification, fun and energy discharge. Jeanne’s desires are for emotional connection, and so to protect me she is always pushing Polly away. Polly needs Jeanne to be there as an accomplice who can keep an eye out for danger and maybe call for a slackening of the pace. But Jeanne needs Polly too. Without Polly life can fall into tedium and soulless moral turpitude.

I’m going to meet up with a new friend tomorrow. We’ve planned a picnic lunch and a walk on the beach. After that it just depends how we respond to each other. I know not to count my chickens. I don’t think he’s read my blog; he wrote to me:

Hey I am just curious about your picture that you posted on AdultFriendFinder. The sexy one of you in a nice lacy bra I think. I know that I don’t know you very well but it seems a little out of character for you. This must be the wild private side of you that no one knows about. I am not complaining I like the picture and would not mind seeing more. I just had to ask so please don’t get upset with me.

Maybe I’ll have the chance to bring Polly and Jeanne together with the help of an understanding friend.

PSIf you are wondering about Polly and Jeanne, see Doing the Splits 3 and Polly and Jeanne Go Courting.

This is Polly, still Wagging
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rm_unlistedone 65M
2718 posts
11/30/2005 1:42 am

To tell you the truth, Polly... I could be happy with either one of them. The combination of the two, working with each other... now that would be an adventure!

Good luck on your picnic. Wish it were me!! unlisted

interested13563 53M
2557 posts
11/30/2005 5:27 pm

I wonder: isn't it true that similar fights occur in
the minds and hearts of all of us? isn't it also true
that when the fight is over reasoing rather than
socially induced psychological contraints we are more

rm_unlistedone 65M
2718 posts
11/30/2005 9:15 pm

I'm glad it did, Polly. I do miss picnicing on the beach.

rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
12/1/2005 9:18 am

GOOD LUCK on the picnic and hope you both get a chance to play

[blog freelove999]

horny4770 60M
8158 posts
12/1/2005 1:23 pm

Polly and Jeanne,

I sure am glad I came by this post. Now I know I'm not alone with mental health issues. I've just learned to drink more scotch and let the loudest one have his/their own way. LOL

Glad to know it worked out well and you All were able to attend!


horny4770 60M
8158 posts
12/2/2005 10:36 am

Let me start by saying how sorry I am to have offended you. What was meant as a veiled attempt as a compliment was poorly stated; I apologize. My comment on mental health was not about being unbalanced but rather the issues in regard to balance and the methods in which you employ to achieve that. In life, as I’m sure you are aware, the swinging pendulum of emotions, physical desires and then the decision making process, never stops in the center of its travel of its own accord. It stops at the extremes every time before returning. Having the necessity and the ability to adjust to our ever changing ‘life’ environment takes strength and judgment; you seem to have devised a way that works for you. I have not found a plan as of yet that works for me; hence, the ‘scotch’ comment. A notably lame attempt at humor on my part; no defense for that. I was sincere when I said I was glad to have come upon your post; with someone who admittedly faces the same action vs. consequent; letting go vs. holding on; to enjoy vs. not enjoy; I wasn’t alone. I thought I understood we were speaking of the same things; I must have misunderstood.

Thursday was a very good day for me; one of the best in a very long time, being nearly giddy, I wasn’t taking anything or anyone too seriously, not even me. Should you choose it see it, yesterday’s post [post 158542] may help explain my light and not to serious demeanor, not to excuse it. As I read your response this morning before checking mail, I literally hung my head; never intending to be insensitive in any way. Admiring your inner strength, I aspire to emulate those who inspire me. My being glad that all worked out well and you were all there, was also genuine. Every time some else succeeds and grows, it’s reassuring to know that in time, I just may also. Being at diverse levels of growth, you seem to have a desire for seeking more awareness, and then for others at times, it’s a matter of making it through the day.

I would regret to have you think of me as a tactless twitch that would take other’s lives and emotions so nonchalantly. So here I am, with hat in hand so to speak, with this humble explanation and offering of apology.


rm_FreeLove999 46F
16127 posts
12/5/2005 3:53 am

well, i do actually experience having multiple personalities, however, i think calling it a mental illness is a misnomer -- i have worried about my sanity a lot, but having been to many therapists they seem to think i am totally sane ... i think also that we view the world from many angles and, therefore, different personalities might have different views -- all in all, it makes life richer, fuller, and more open ended ...

i have known many people diagnosed with mental illness, but in general, the methods used to so-called "help" are abysmal failures. everything an "insane" person experiences is real -- in some form -- in order for it to have been inscribed on the brain in the first place (i call this "written on the body") it must have existed ... therefore, i think it is the therapists that need to acknowledge the reality first, before they can even begin to understand or help the patient.

this reality we live in causes us to need multiple personalities in order to cope -- because there are so many different pressures on us, so many "readings" from others that we have to navigate, so much diversity we have to cope with -- in different situations we need to be quite literally different people.

therefore, horny, i would suggest you stop drowning your sorrows in whiskey (i also love whiskey, but not for drowning in) and start to recognise the strengths and importance of each personality ... get them to do what waggy has done -- get them talking to each other!!

(and, LOL!, no offence, but I'm sure part of you revels in the tactless twitch and nothing wrong with that either ...)

[blog freelove999]

keithcancook 60M
17840 posts
12/5/2005 7:23 am

OIC, this is where you revealed your schitzophrenia to the world!

I'm just teasing ya, sweetie. It really is a good post, and we can all relate to inner voices or alter egos...

horny4770 60M
8158 posts
12/6/2005 6:53 am

Polly: For the record; no offence intended. As for friends? I wouldn’t want it any other way. The only enemy I know I have; is me. And that’s not even a full time job; it pays absolutely nothing and has no benefits. Just poking fun at ME while I’m writing this with a smile; a very good morning again. I was careful not to say anything about ‘illness’, only ‘issues’, which I’m convinced most have to deal with, some refuse to admit, is why I was glad to read about your success in dealing with them. When it comes to my inferring that anyone else maybe unstable, that would be for me, like the pot calling the kettle black. A painful shoulder can keep a pitcher out of a game; the same as the pain inside can keep a comparatively ‘normal’ (whatever that is) person from moving ahead. Life is strange that way. I left you a response in my blog [post 158542] on the second matter. Thanks for being understanding. Looking forward to more of your postings. You’re a Doll!

Free: I lived in what some would call a perfect world for a very long time. I would want to believe I’m totally sane; but after having that perfect world turned over, I have had to question some things. Complete and total sanity being one of them; with the added pressures of well meaning people pushing from all sides when they don’t have a clue what is going on inside. I genuinely appreciate all the concern for my well being and for my liver; however the ‘Scotch’ comment was only a lame and failed attempt at humor, given the lack of a real solution. I’m just too tight and my scotch just too expensive to drown much of anything in it. Although, I do enjoy a little ‘Lubricant’ now and again, I agree, there are no answers there. No offence taken; the tactless twitch is not my nature. Playful, somewhat ornery and definitely annoying, now that’s another story! I will visit your blog shortly. Thanks Dear.

To All: This is the most refreshing dialog I’ve experienced concerning this subject. Thanks for sharing and putting up with me, I know it can be a challenge! You are welcome to visit me horny4770 if you have the time or interest and reply to any senseless post you want. My best to all in this upcoming Holiday Season!



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